Mad at myself

16 more days until I get banded! I am excited but yet nervous and mad at myself. I have control of every other thing in my life but have never managed to get my weight under control. I can’t believe that within the last 7 years I have allowed myself to become inactive and complacent to the point that I have gained all of this weight. When I was ready to start my career I made a plan and followed it until I had the career I wanted. When I decided I wanted to buy a house I picked up a second job to save extra money and six months later I was a home owner. Yet and still like millions of others I have battled with my weight. I have tried every diet out there from RX medicine phen-fen to over the counter diet pills/drugs. Sure I lose the weight, look good for 3-6 months and then I gain it all back plus more then I originally started off with. In 16 more days I will be shelling out over $10,000 because I have lost control and lack the discipline to get my weight under control. Having the lap-band procedure is especially important to me because my mother who suffered from hypertension due to obesity now has End Stage Renal Disease (kidney failure). I am determined to win my battle with weight and become the healthy active person I am meant to be.

Dark_lovely,

You've already started taking control. Best wishes! Do you have to do a pre-op diet?

You sound quite a bit like me, but you need to stop beating yourself up. Don't look at it as spending $10,000 for a lack of control issue. Look at it as a $10,000 investment in your future, so that you will be able to enjoy that home you bought, and an investment in your life overall.

My surgery date is May 19th and I'm very excited to start shedding the pounds I've slowly gained over my lifetime. Good luck to you!

I actually go to pre -op 1 week prior to my procedure.