Well, I said I would try to keep everyone updated more often, its not working out as well as I planned. :blushing:A lot of things have been going on with me emotionally with life lately. I feel like I may be trying to do too many things at once. I decided to promise myself that I will try-- key word here..."Try" to let things go and not let so much get to me. :crying:I realize that, that is what is holding me back on my happiness. I let too many things get to me, work, friends, family.. I spend all my extra time trying to make other happy and I realized I don't know how to make me happy. So that's my new thing is to start focusing on me first.

Ok enough of my dramatics, I had my first fill on monday! I have a 10 cc band and they put 3.5ccs in. Ok so I'm sure everyone wants to know how it was. Well first off, it hurt!:thumbup: The needle is about 4 inches long and the width of a 14 gauge peircing needle! It hurt going and and coming out! Well the positive thing was I got to watch on the x-ray machine everything that was going on and I found out that the actual band is right under my breast bone, which makes sense because when I gets stuck thats where I feel it. They of course made me drink barium again to make sure everything was going down fine. That stuff is so nasty. All in all it lasted about 10 mins and I'm so glad that it's only once a month! I was on liquids all day monday and mushies yesterday. Today I get start soft foods but I do feel it a little, the restriction that is. I'm still learning to chew, chew, chew. Oh and I'm down 25 lbs!!:thumbup: So thats my march update!