June 5, 2006

:confused: I am going crazy! I still have a lot of pus coming out my wound, I really thought I was getting better. Maybe I still am getting better but with the wound pussing like it is, I am sure it slows down the healing time. But I really dont know. I go in to the Wound Specialist on Thursday so maybe she will see if there is anything that I should be doing diffrently.

All this scares me, because I need to get a job. I am worried about being around 100 or more people in the same building with a wound like mine. But then it so hard with some of the money problems we are having. Then over all once I do heal, I want to have surgery again.. and that time I will need off to recover. Will a new job even let me take time off like that. There is so much to think about I am going crazy! :girl_hug: or just feel like I am, everything is so over whelming.

I did take up Knitting Oh what a wonderful thing to do to get my mind off of things. It is so relaxing. All I can do is make scarfs for now but hopefully I will be able to make a lot more then just that. But for now I am really enjoying myself. So between my ceramics and now my knitting, it is helping me keep my mind off of all the bad things in my life. To bad I cant knit my problems away as fast as the yarn goes down.

I have not weighed myself, because one day I was so excited I saw 283 and then I was back up to 287.. Hmmmmm I guess I will just have to wait and see what happens when I get my new band. I still have my hopes up about getting my new band. I cant wait!!!!