July 11, 2006

Oh boy it has been so long since I have wrote in here. Well it is about time I catch up.

Well my hole is about healed up, It is still about 1in deep. Which to me is a lot (since its my own tummy i guess) But coming from 6in deep 3in wide hole:eek: gots to be so much better. I go and see my wound Dr. on Thursday July 13th I think will be proud of my healing prosses.

I have not heard from my Band Dr. or the Nurse, maybe they forgot about me who knows. Maybe the hope I forgot about them LOL Anyway I am trying my hardest to hang in there.

I have been getting heart burn almost everytime I eat... which I am so scared as to know why this is happening... I hope my band is doing okay.. I have had it for 15 months now, maybe I should go and get an endo done to make sure everything is okay.

My eating habbits seems to go back to normal. I eat so much and its all junk! I cant help it, I feel my band its working with me I shouldnt work with it... you know that feeling... Well maybe I should try a diet or something! UGH I HATE DIETS!!! Thats why I got this dang band in the first place! Gosh I want to get mad... but I cant I have to be strong and know one day just one day all this will end, I will have a new band and I will start to lose weight! I really need to I just turn 30 and I feel like im 80... I barely can walk... I cant breathe at times, I wake of all of a sudden gaspping for air. I cant live like this, I cant put my hubby thourgh this. If this band doesnt work for me I will have to look at my other opptions!

For now... I am praying my band is okay.. and I really want it to work for me, I just got to keep my head up and my heart strong!!!!!!!!

So great to hear from you Trish! I continue to pray that you heal up and get that new band -- I can't imagine how it has all felt to you....it's a struggle and you ARE getting through it - yea!