July 18, 2006

Well today I still sit with a hole in my tummy, having to pack it everyday gets so fustrating. But I know that I am not the only one who has gone through this. I want to say everything is going good, well I guess I can say it is, because it sure isnt getting worse. I guess that is a blessing. I pray for the day this will all end and I will be normal again. I want to be able to take a shower for more the 5 min. To be able to let the warm water slapsh over my tummy without plastic all over. Sorry if I sound like I am feeling sorry for myself. I'm really not, I just talk about my feeling over all.

I still have not lost any weight, I dont even weight myself anymore... I'm pretty scared to see what that scale would say. But hey, I might be suprized... who knows, but right now im not ready. I really dont have much restriction at all so I can eat just about anything. Sometimes I do get stuck though, On breads or solid read meats. I dont know what I would being I have a leak in my band, and no port. I try to becareful about what I eat, but it is so so so hard. I guess thats why I got the band in the first place.

I am still Knitting and Crocheting it helps my days go by. I am making a blanket I think it will take me a very long time but It will all be worth it. I started making doilies too... I never use to like them but now I love them, how funny is that.. lol I guess I like them more now that I can understand what goes in to making one.

well I hope everyday gets better and better... I am looking forward to the greener grass!

I really hope that everything gets better for you. You deserve to have the weightloss success just as much as everyone else. Do you think it was your lapband surgeon that was the cause of all of this? Take care...