June 2, 2006

I know I have not wrote on here for a while. But not much has changed until now. I have been so excited about my wound closing up it seems to get better everyday....until last night. I was watching a movie and I just couldnt keep my eyes open.. I started to get really cold and I went outside (80 degrees) and I started shivering. I knew this meant I had an infection brewing up. I went to take a warm bath (water does not touch my covered wound area) and when I looked at the gauze over my wound I noticed it looked green. So when my husband came home he repacked my wound and the packing that was in there was covered in pus.. (it had normally be really red blood throughout) there was a little pink but it was mostly greenish white pus. I didnt say anything I just laied there with tears in my eyes. Sometimes I just want to bang my head on the wall out of fustration I just want to be normal again. Who knows when I will get my band replaced and who knows if its not even messed up now. I am so scared that I will go get my new band and I will wake up to nothing. I guess I just have to see what happens.

I am going to have to look for a job soon. My husband pay check was just about cut in half and we are barely living. He is having to work overtime just so we can pay rent. He wants me to work at T Mobile call center, but I am scared about being around so many people with this open wound. Oh well I guess I dont have a choice. I will be applying there Tuesday. Wish me luck!

I am praying for a better day today!!!

Trish - I'm so sorry for your agony right now -- and I truly DO know what you are going through financially -- you can read today's journal entry and you'll see that we are in the same boat in many ways. I'll keep you in my prayers - especially regarding the hole in your tummy and infection.

Trish,

I got an infection in one of my incisions too. the top layer and the bottom healed sealing the infection in the middle.. i ultimately had to get it re-opened, packed and an antibiotic shot in the site to get it to heal as well as take oral antibiotics for ten days.. but at the end of those ten days..i was home free... and they did it all at urgent care. i kept using the hot pad on top of a wet washcloth to draw out the infection. it worked wonderfully.. I hope u get better. you'll be well on your way in no time, Im prayin for ya