I'm loosing it

ok guys I am 6 days pre -op and I feel like I am loosing it ( And I aint talking about weight loss ) Lately when I go to sleep I have all of these weird crazy dreams. One night I had a dream that an alligator was trying to eat me, then I dreamed that I was in a flying elevator that was about to be set on fire, then I dreamed that I was in a plane crash. What's really going on. Maybe it is the fact that I am only consuming protein drinks during the day and a small meal without carbs at night or may be I am stressed out about the surgery. All my life I have been big on encouraging other people, telling them that they can make it and everything will be alright , but when it comes to myself OH BOY I loose it some times. I keep telling myself, "Girl this is gonna be a breeze , You have been exercising every day and you have had 3 c-sections so this should be a piece of cake." But for some reason that pep talk is not working at all. At one time I told my 12 yr old that maybe I should not do this but she said mommy you have no choice (from the mouth of a babe) and she is soooo very right.

Wild dreams are normal before a surgery (I won't share the scary ones I had before my hysterectomy LOL). Just remind yourself that it's your subconscious getting rid of all those scary feelings so that during the day you can be as strong and confident as you are! What is that saying...You can't be brave if you're not also scared (or something like that)... You'll do great!! -BG

bg thanks for the encouragement. What you said makes a lot of sense. I'm just nervous.

Hi lovely creation,

I'm 9 days post op and it gets so much better. Just hang in there. You're probably so accustomed to providing those encouraging words to others but not used to hearing and truly accepting them when it's your turn. Stop, and let this be your turn. You're going to do great and YES you need this. We all did/do. There's so much life out there for you to live and enjoy. Take a deep breath and exhale! You are so worth this surgery. In a few days it'll all be a distant memory and you'll look back and smile. You can do this. I did it. You can too!

I had some crazy dreams after I got home. Stuff that didn't even make sense once I explained it(ha).

Often we're afraid of change, even if we need it and want it.

When is your surgery scheduled for? Mine was on January 26th.

Take care.

Hi yellowtopaz, my surgery is scheduled for Monday Feb. 9th Yhanks for the encouraging words.

Lovely Creation