Bummed

I am so bummed. I had the lapband put in July 3rd. I have lost around 50. And I was starting to feel so good... but lately I have been feeling like I am failing. I have been so hungry all the time. I went to my surgeon 2 weeks ago and he told me to wait another month before a fill. I have only had 1 fill and I just think it was a big mistake. I have been eating way too much. I am just so worried I am screwing everything up, and then I am getting so worried that I feel like everything I have been eating is terrible. Blahhh - I just wonder if it is PMS :mad2: that is what I am hoping.... hehe- But I absolutely can not wait until my next fill.

Then I was chatting the other day on here and the people in the chat room made me feel even worse. So now I am even more concerned. Does everyone never eat anything bad for them? I mean I VERY RARELY have had a "treat" but that still must be too much. I feel like I have fallen off the wagon or something... And then I wonder - well why is it so hard for me not to eat... why am i hungry all the time.. I wasnt feeling this the past 4 months. Well I just have to be patient until the day before Thanksgiving - my next fill! And thank God! None of that junk for me then!

Stephieeve...That sucks that you didn't get a fill. It really sounds like you could have used one. You feel like you have been failing? Have you gained?

Hey don't let anyone make you feel worse. Some times things get tough. That is a way of life. We all have to understand that there is going to be a time that we find this monster (obesity) a harder fight than we planned. Did you fall off the wagon? That's okay. You are okay. Do you remember what it was like in the beginning? My pre-op diet was tough to start, but made me feel so much better.

I know it seems like a long 3 weeks to wait for another fill, but no matter what that day will get here. One day at a time. Every time you want to eat ask yourself "Am I hungery?" That seems to help me most of the time. Make sure you are getting enough protein to help fight off hunger. That helps me a ton too.

You can keep doing this. Put an extra 30 min of exercise into your week. You can do it! You have lost 50 lbs. Take out those old picture and take a look at where you were and how far you've come!

You aren't alone. Stick with it.

I have my fill the day before you do. I updated my signature with a count down. I am looking forward to it. Stay on the boards an keep looking for that support. You are a strong woman. You can make the most out of it...and not beat up on yourself for the slip-ups.