Taking it for granted

My realignment is just about done, and I'm so glad. This weird penchant for losing control and letting my bad choices rule me is getting old, fast.

I have fill scheduled for Friday and I'm going to go, regardless of how my band feels. My liquid diet didn't work out yesterday, because I was tired and lazy and didn't do a damned thing around the house. I finished feeling sorry for myself and fairly bounced out of the bed this morning.

It always makes me smile when I'm doing my menu for the week. It takes so very little to nourish me, and I can't believe I'm picking veggie burgers and protein shakes. And looking forward to it! The band is truly amazing.

My trigger this time was an abandonment/rejection. Someone I cared for has basically disappeared from my life. I said goodbye to him out loud this morning, and it's like a weight was lifted off me.

You will meet the person of your dreams !! You sound nice, and nice doesn't always finish last. I have to deal with my weight loss and my relationship. I see a new me and my dr. says I have to figure out why I got with this person, cause I was overweight or depressed, etc. It is very hard to deal with this, cause he said it would happen, he mentioned it before I had the surgery. I have been married before and had not so good relationships. I was fat, I was smaller, Who knows, but I do know 1 thing, it has been 8 months and 72 lbs. lighter. Everthing is like a roller coaster. I sure the ride ends and every1 stops noticing, waiting for u to gain it back. I told only family, no one at my work. Life is good, if its meant for me not to be in this relationship, I can handle it. For the first time I look in the mirror and take a double take. Things are getting better...Thank God I will live to retire...