fight it

Just looked at my weight journal. Lost only 10 pounds since last year. Alot of occasions have thrown me off of my path. I need to learn to stay on track and focus on my eating during special days. I easily see them as opportunities to get out of my health eating. Almost like treats that I deserve to splurge. But so many special days/occasions have really set me back. I made an appointed with Dr. T for a fill. But having second thoughts about it. I already feel the tightness when I eat beef or chicken. I'm afraid of ending up with too tight of a band and it being so uncomfortable. But my hunger has been incredible. I'm thinking about it constantly and planning my next meal. I've increased my excercise. I have decided to give it my whole and best effort to drop some pounds before my 1st year anniversary. Yet, I feel my body is working against me. Sometimes I wonder why. Why does it have to fight me now, just when I thought I was on a roll. Right before hitting my first year end. I'm going home to TX the first week of July. That will be my biggest appearance of my weight loss life. The new me. But now with this pause, I have to push it. Work extrememly hard. FIGHT THE BATTLE TO THE END. :thumbdown:

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