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One year gone and took 87 pounds with it. Yupeee!!! I'm happy and sad. Happy that I feel good and have not had any complications. I feel energized with alot more self esteem and do feel like my life is in a new phase. Sad, because my goal was to loose 100 pounds in one year. It's getting much more harder now. I've caugt myself going into old bad habits. I feel like my body continues to fight me. Hunger is also against me. It's harder to loose the pounds. I stay in a range of 10 pounds. Loose 4 one week then two weeks later those same 4 or 5 are back. I have now decided to take things to another level. I enjoy walking and have put some jogging into my excercise. But feel I need the advice and encouragement of a physcial trainer. I have now looked into that and plan on starting soon. Mentally, there's been alot of confusion and alot of emotions. There's alot of ups and downs. Alot of my history has come out, for some reason. I need to continue seeing my pyschologist, who had previously warned me that many things in my head would awaken and I would have to face them. I trust that with his help and GODs presence I will work thru this. :thumbup:

One year gone and took 87 pounds with it. Yupeee!!! I'm happy and sad. Happy that I feel good and have not had any complications. I feel energized with alot more self esteem and do feel like my life is in a new phase. Sad, because my goal was to loose 100 pounds in one year. It's getting much more harder now. I've caugt myself going into old bad habits. I feel like my body continues to fight me. Hunger is also against me. It's harder to loose the pounds. I stay in a range of 10 pounds. Loose 4 one week then two weeks later those same 4 or 5 are back. I have now decided to take things to another level. I enjoy walking and have put some jogging into my excercise. But feel I need the advice and encouragement of a physcial trainer. I have now looked into that and plan on starting soon. Mentally, there's been alot of confusion and alot of emotions. There's alot of ups and downs. Alot of my history has come out, for some reason. I need to continue seeing my pyschologist, who had previously warned me that many things in my head would awaken and I would have to face them. I trust that with his help and GODs presence I will work thru this. :smile2:

Just looked at my weight journal. Lost only 10 pounds since last year. Alot of occasions have thrown me off of my path. I need to learn to stay on track and focus on my eating during special days. I easily see them as opportunities to get out of my health eating. Almost like treats that I deserve to splurge. But so many special days/occasions have really set me back. I made an appointed with Dr. T for a fill. But having second thoughts about it. I already feel the tightness when I eat beef or chicken. I'm afraid of ending up with too tight of a band and it being so uncomfortable. But my hunger has been incredible. I'm thinking about it constantly and planning my next meal. I've increased my excercise. I have decided to give it my whole and best effort to drop some pounds before my 1st year anniversary. Yet, I feel my body is working against me. Sometimes I wonder why. Why does it have to fight me now, just when I thought I was on a roll. Right before hitting my first year end. I'm going home to TX the first week of July. That will be my biggest appearance of my weight loss life. The new me. But now with this pause, I have to push it. Work extrememly hard. FIGHT THE BATTLE TO THE END. :thumbs_up: 311/231/170

Just looked at my weight journal. Lost only 10 pounds since last year. Alot of occasions have thrown me off of my path. I need to learn to stay on track and focus on my eating during special days. I easily see them as opportunities to get out of my health eating. Almost like treats that I deserve to splurge. But so many special days/occasions have really set me back. I made an appointed with Dr. T for a fill. But having second thoughts about it. I already feel the tightness when I eat beef or chicken. I'm afraid of ending up with too tight of a band and it being so uncomfortable. But my hunger has been incredible. I'm thinking about it constantly and planning my next meal. I've increased my excercise. I have decided to give it my whole and best effort to drop some pounds before my 1st year anniversary. Yet, I feel my body is working against me. Sometimes I wonder why. Why does it have to fight me now, just when I thought I was on a roll. Right before hitting my first year end. I'm going home to TX the first week of July. That will be my biggest appearance of my weight loss life. The new me. But now with this pause, I have to push it. Work extrememly hard. FIGHT THE BATTLE TO THE END. :thumbdown: 311/231/170

It's my favorite month of May. I eventually did get my 3rd fill and doing good. The bad news is that my weight hasn't changed that much. My body is changing alot. How is that? My newest clothes in size 20 is starting to fit loose. I think my body is trying to catch up. My energy level is awesome. I go up and down stairs without SOB. I love my yoga. I walk at work 15-20 mins. At home 20-30 mins. I love all the new energy. I get boy attention. I am alot more involved in things than before. Sometimes the days seem too short to do everything I want to do. I continue to enjoy my tuna. My hair continues to thin out. My tummy is shrinking. I can now feel some bones. I can reach my back. I can polish my little toe nails. Even music sounds better. I'm very happy to be back on track to healthier new me. A bit more emotional than ever before, but learning through every phase of this journey. Thank you Lord for being with me. :rolleyes2: 311/230/170

It's my favorite month of May. I eventually did get my 3rd fill and doing good. The bad news is that my weight hasn't changed that much. My body is changing alot. How is that? My newest clothes in size 20 is starting to fit loose. I think my body is trying to catch up. My energy level is awesome. I go up and down stairs without SOB. I love my yoga. I walk at work 15-20 mins. At home 20-30 mins. I love all the new energy. I get boy attention. I am alot more involved in things than before. Sometimes the days seem too short to do everything I want to do. I continue to enjoy my tuna. My hair continues to thin out. My tummy is shrinking. I can now feel some bones. I can reach my back. I can polish my little toe nails. Even music sounds better. I'm very happy to be back on track to healthier new me. A bit more emotional than ever before, but learning through every phase of this journey. Thank you Lord for being with me. :crying: 311/230/170

:confused:It's Feb and my weight has not continued to drop. I have been at 239/240 for the past 4 weeks. I believe it's time for a fill. I had planned on staying away from a fill as long as I could. I wanted to try it on my own. Last one was end of Nov. I had increased my excercise and kept good eating habits, but something is not working. My meals are larger. I am very hungry before it's time to eat. I do snack. On fruits. And intake as much water as possible. My routine at work has changed and maybe that has affected me. Like taking 15 min power walks, no longer there. And doing my yoga twice a week at work, slowing declining. But I thought that since I have increased my jogging, that I would be ok. Nope. I have 29 pounds to loose to meet my BIG goal. I have to be 211 by my Band anniversary date of July 13th. That would be 100 pounds lighter in one year! About 7 lbs per month need to shed off. I DO need a fill. I will make a call soon. Why have the band and not get it filled? :thumbup: H-311/C-340/G-170

:confused:It's Feb and my weight has not continued to drop. I have been at 239/240 for the past 4 weeks. I believe it's time for a fill. I had planned on staying away from a fill as long as I could. I wanted to try it on my own. Last one was end of Nov. I had increased my excercise and kept good eating habits, but something is not working. My meals are larger. I am very hungry before it's time to eat. I do snack. On fruits. And intake as much water as possible. My routine at work has changed and maybe that has affected me. Like taking 15 min power walks, no longer there. And doing my yoga twice a week at work, slowing declining. But I thought that since I have increased my jogging, that I would be ok. Nope. I have 29 pounds to loose to meet my BIG goal. I have to be 211 by my Band anniversary date of July 13th. That would be 100 pounds lighter in one year! About 7 lbs per month need to shed off. I DO need a fill. I will make a call soon. Why have the band and not get it filled? H-311/C-340/G-170

I'm past my first holidays with the band. It was a good experience, especially being back home to El Paso surrounded by memories of old habits. I loved the way it prevents me from overeating. I learned I can overcome the site of large amounts of food. And tasting my favorite things will statisfy the strong wants. I had a large amount of family support who understood what I was facing. Before flying back to texas I had lost 5 pounds. I was feeling awesome. Plus I had starting running. Me running? I should clarify that: Jogging. I have enjoyed walking on my treadmill. I get these little moments of anxiety where I feel I need to do something, so I go on the treadmill. With my music blasting I end up doing being 30-40 mins. Music helps me alot. Especially my parents and grandparents old mexican music. It gives me so much encouragement. Coming back home to Vegas I knew my muscles were weak. I did feel tired. I had gained 4 pounds. Even my yoga class was a bit difficult. But I knew that working out would get me back on track. And that's where I find myself. I have craved chips. My mind keeps thinking about them. chips, chips, chips. They're coming back to haunt me. I did treat myself with the traditional holiday foods. Like tamales, champurrado, menudo, bunuelos, biscochos, chile con queso and a few candies. All in moderation. Like telling my body. Here, have a little, you are not starving or being deprived of everything. I have increased my water intake. It had gotten really bad. I was so used to my regular routine at work and home. I need to shorten my vacations. Just for now, till I reach a controllable stage. :eek: H-311/C-244/G-170

I'm past my first holidays with the band. It was a good experience, especially being back home to El Paso surrounded by memories of old habits. I loved the way it prevents me from overeating. I learned I can overcome the site of large amounts of food. And tasting my favorite things will statisfy the strong wants. I had a large amount of family support who understood what I was facing. Before flying back to texas I had lost 5 pounds. I was feeling awesome. Plus I had starting running. Me running? I should clarify that: Jogging. I have enjoyed walking on my treadmill. I get these little moments of anxiety where I feel I need to do something, so I go on the treadmill. With my music blasting I end up doing being 30-40 mins. Music helps me alot. Especially my parents and grandparents old mexican music. It gives me so much encouragement. Coming back home to Vegas I knew my muscles were weak. I did feel tired. I had gained 4 pounds. Even my yoga class was a bit difficult. But I knew that working out would get me back on track. And that's where I find myself. I have craved chips. My mind keeps thinking about them. chips, chips, chips. They're coming back to haunt me. I did treat myself with the traditional holiday foods. Like tamales, champurrado, menudo, bunuelos, biscochos, chile con queso and a few candies. All in moderation. Like telling my body. Here, have a little, you are not starving or being deprived of everything. I have increased my water intake. It had gotten really bad. I was so used to my regular routine at work and home. I need to shorten my vacations. Just for now, till I reach a controllable stage. H-311/C-244/G-170

It's been over a month without going into my journal. So here's my update: Finally had my second fill. Under flouro. Doc tried at the office, but not succesful. Then cancelled my next appointment at the hospital because of an emergency surgery he had to do. Finally got it done Nov. 14th. Felt good. Noticed harder time with chicken. I just have to chew alot more. Thanksgiving. Sort of glad that's over with. Visiting my brother in Dallas. Overate that day and ended up in pain. Experienced my first throw up with the band. Too much turkey felt stuck; not going thru. I tried drinking sips of water and made it worse. Became nauseous and threw up a little. Then everything was ok. Went on shopping and continued with light foods. I don't want to do that Again. I felt like I hurt myself. My stomach was a bit sensitive after that. Also wonder if I stretched my pouch? My first holidays. I will have to take it easy and slow. Learn. After my little 4 day vacation, I'm putting myself back on track. I have continued with tuna. Love that stuff. I have continued my walking. Enjoying. Forcing the water in. Mainly at work. It's easier. I noticed that I lose my weight with excercise. The harder I work the faster it comes off. And not one pound at a time. It comes off in groups. 3 - 5 pounds at once. I'll stay at a certain weight for several weeks then all of a sudden a big drop. (big for me it seems) I love that feeling. H-311 C-243 G-170

It's been over a month without going into my journal. So here's my update: Finally had my second fill. Under flouro. Doc tried at the office, but not succesful. Then cancelled my next appointment at the hospital because of an emergency surgery he had to do. Finally got it done Nov. 14th. Felt good. Noticed harder time with chicken. I just have to chew alot more. Thanksgiving. Sort of glad that's over with. Visiting my brother in Dallas. Overate that day and ended up in pain. Experienced my first throw up with the band. Too much turkey felt stuck; not going thru. I tried drinking sips of water and made it worse. Became nauseous and threw up a little. Then everything was ok. Went on shopping and continued with light foods. I don't want to do that Again. I felt like I hurt myself. My stomach was a bit sensitive after that. Also wonder if I stretched my pouch? My first holidays. I will have to take it easy and slow. Learn. After my little 4 day vacation, I'm putting myself back on track. I have continued with tuna. Love that stuff. I have continued my walking. Enjoying. Forcing the water in. Mainly at work. It's easier. I noticed that I lose my weight with excercise. The harder I work the faster it comes off. And not one pound at a time. It comes off in groups. 3 - 5 pounds at once. I'll stay at a certain weight for several weeks then all of a sudden a big drop. (big for me it seems) I love that feeling. H-311 C-243 G-170

Getting ready to head back home to EP next week. Already traveling? I feel up to it. I have energy, I'm flexable and my mind seems to be clearing up. I'm able to think a lot better at work now. Things also seem to be happier. I feel like a fresh onion after a few layers have been lifted off. I'm able to walk pretty good. Once I get started, I don't want to stop. The music pushes me to work harder. I can jog, maybe for about 3 mins. I love it. It makes me feel free. I can walk 40 mins. Plus incline 2%. I have really gotten into my yoga class. I look forward to breathing. Another, sensation of release and freedom. I go in this coming Monday for my second fill. I get very hungry between meals. I was afraid of confronting Dr. Teng before today. I had stayed at 255 for close to 4 weeks. So what I did, I increased my protein and exercise. Just yesterday I lost 4 lbs. I hope I'm over my plateu. I didn't like that. I got a bit worried that I was doing something wrong. Exercise really works. Plus patience is something I will have to deal with too. My hair continues to fall off. I havent cut it. But I want to. There are areas where I can see my scalp, more and more. My nails don't grow anylonger. But overall I feel very good. My clothes feel so comfortable. My leg muscles feel strong. I'm sleeping less and waking up with a lot of energy. I walk 4-5 times a week and do yoga on 2 days. Tuna is becoming my new best friend. I had a special treat this past week, after the scale moved. My friend invited me to Hooters. Had five hot wings. They were so yummy! I haven't had any candy lately. I'm trying to wait till Halloween. Hope that will be my reward if I continue losing. :girl_hug:

Getting ready to head back home to EP next week. Already traveling? I feel up to it. I have energy, I'm flexable and my mind seems to be clearing up. I'm able to think a lot better at work now. Things also seem to be happier. I feel like a fresh onion after a few layers have been lifted off. I'm able to walk pretty good. Once I get started, I don't want to stop. The music pushes me to work harder. I can jog, maybe for about 3 mins. I love it. It makes me feel free. I can walk 40 mins. Plus incline 2%. I have really gotten into my yoga class. I look forward to breathing. Another, sensation of release and freedom. I go in this coming Monday for my second fill. I get very hungry between meals. I was afraid of confronting Dr. Teng before today. I had stayed at 255 for close to 4 weeks. So what I did, I increased my protein and exercise. Just yesterday I lost 4 lbs. I hope I'm over my plateu. I didn't like that. I got a bit worried that I was doing something wrong. Exercise really works. Plus patience is something I will have to deal with too. My hair continues to fall off. I havent cut it. But I want to. There are areas where I can see my scalp, more and more. My nails don't grow anylonger. But overall I feel very good. My clothes feel so comfortable. My leg muscles feel strong. I'm sleeping less and waking up with a lot of energy. I walk 4-5 times a week and do yoga on 2 days. Tuna is becoming my new best friend. I had a special treat this past week, after the scale moved. My friend invited me to Hooters. Had five hot wings. They were so yummy! I haven't had any candy lately. I'm trying to wait till Halloween. Hope that will be my reward if I continue losing. :confused:

It's been more than two weeks that I've stayed around the same weight. I go up 1-2 lbs, then I'll go down those same 1-2 lbs. (254-257) I'm thinking am at the platue area that people talk about. Although there is something major going on. My exercise has increased. I'm starting to like it. I love the energy level. I get a high when I'm at most strenous point of excersing. I'm able to walk 1.5 miles in 40 mins. (with an incline of 2%) I feel my muscles are getting stronger. Especially my legs. I walk 4-5 times a week and do yoga twice a week. After each workout I feel good. It's just hard to get started. There's always something pulling me back. (No not today. I'm too tired. My body hurts. There's no time) My mind always tries to convince me. I battle it. Even when I'm thinking I don't want to walk, I force myself to get on the tredmill. Will I always have to fight myself to excersice? I understand the long term benefits and I know how good I will feel afterwards. Why do I always try and get out of moving my body and waking up my muscles and using all my sweat glands? I can feel the oxygen running thru my veins and opening areas that have been shut for so long. My heart feels strong and sometimes I imagine it smiling at me because I have set it free and giving it freedom to pump. I felt that so much fat around it was constricting it. My goal is to speed walk 3 miles in 45 mins. I know I can do it. I've done it in the past. And man I still remember what a good feeling that used to be. Thanksgiving is coming soon. I have planned to work the day and consider it a normal day. Being that it's my first Thanksgiving with the band, I don't want to get into trouble. One big problem. My brother really wants me to join his family for the holiday. I haven't figured out how to meet this challenge. Christmas will be a bit easier if I stay in town. I feel I have more power over my self. I feel I'm ready for my second fill. It will be in exactly two weeks. I feel hungry majority of the time. I try and cover it with water. I will be strong. For some reason it feels like i'm fighting my own body all the time. It's mine so why shouldn't I be the one in control. Right now it's probably creating muscle and storing as much fat as it can cuz it's thinking I'm going to starve it. Guess what? I'm trying to take fat away from it. Let's see what happens. :confused: