One Month Out

It's been just about a month now. All sorts of mixed feelings. Getting ready to return to work this coming monday. Finally getting stronger. I cannot believe how weak I was post-op. I feel like my muscles have atrophied and are still regaining their strength. I'm still taking all the vitamins and have increased my protein by adding unflavored protein powder anywhere I can. I can still smell it. I seem to have distanced myself from any kind of protein shake. Just thinking of it, gives a bad feeling. I seem to concentrate on drinking lots of water. I'm always thinking about it. Remembering one hour after eating. With ice or no ice, glass or plastic, bottle or filter from faucet.

My two good friends have stopped to say hi today. They both said that I looked different. My shoulders have lowered, one of them said. I missed talking to them. We chatted for about 4 hours. Drinking all sorts of juices and water. They ate a few snacks, but mentioned that they didn't want to eat in front of me. We talked about all sorts of things. They have been great supporters. I believe going back to work will be smooth with their help. Plus, having the privledge of going in half days will be a great positive in case I need it.

One worry. My weight has stayed at 273 all last week and this week. What's going on? My hunger is slowing returning. I might be eating more. But no more than one cup. I need to keep ahead. I see my surgeon in about 4 weeks. One month! I better not gain.:hungry: