Back from the Doctor

Just got back from the doctor. I lost only 3.2 lbs, for a for a total fo 30.6 lbs. I can have only clear liquids today and full liquids tomorrow. I seem only to lose on those two days of the month. I'm going to change what I eat. I'm going to try more protien. I don't really like protien, but will try to eat more.

I'm really discourged, but I really need to accept some to the blame for not losing more. I eat way to many carb and not the correct kind of carbs. I love fruit and veggie and I need to figure out how to eat them with out eating to many. I need to rid myself of my chocolate addiction. I just love chocolate. I gave up diet coke, surely I can give up chocolate. Most sweets don't bother me. I know that I can't have cookies or brownies in my house. If I have them around I'm doomed from the start. I done real good not buying them.

I really ready to go to a smaller size. I'm still wearing the same things. My clothes were so tight and now they are getting loose. Maybe a few more pounds and I will be able to get into something smaller. I really want to change everything in my life. I want to wear really cute clothes. I tried on some 2x clothes this morning, but I didn't like the way my stomach looked in the clothes. It will probably be hanging to my knees by the time I lose all this weight.

I know I will do better. Just disappointed that I didn't do better this month.