*Sigh* Stress Sucks

Stress has one effect on me - it makes me not give one little damn about losing weight, or exercise, or anything.

I went on-line today, looking for a job. It was pretty depressing. Anything that I have a snow-ball's chance of qualifying for pays literally half of my mortgage salary.

Any mortgage jobs have already been filled by people from the companies that have closed - so I am currently a surplus individual, in more than just my pants size.

I have to make a choice, now. Do I starve all summer and take the crash-course for Teacher Certification and work in a High Need school (If I get accepted to the program!) or do I take the sane, longer way and have some say in the choice of schools? The problem is that the sane longer way means I have to take one of those half-pay full-time jobs and just go broke more slowly. But, at least I would have health insurance that way.

I am torn. Looking at the jobs availabe out there, I am thinking the sooner I can be certified to get at least a Teacher's salary, the better - but going until September with no health insurance is scary and dangerous.

No telling if DH can get a job in TX at all - much less whether he can get one after being off work for 5 yrs... They will think he has been in jail or something! Plus, he will get all pissy if he has to go back to work...

But, if he could work for 6 mos while I did the crash-course, he could retire again quicker... DANG I don't know what to do.

So, clearly, my eating and exercise habits are not my main concern at the moment - which makes for less than stellar decisions on my part.

Thankfully, the scale is holding at 287 or so - except that it is tweaking and I don't know if the number on it can be trusted at all. Grrr.

I have to get back to the gym, at least. It appears that after next week, I won't have "lack of time" as an excuse... *sigh*.