Morning Day 4

No pain meds in my system right now at all and I'm feeling some new soreness. Port pain and incision on left side (2 largest) are pretty sore. I've been fighting headaches for the last 2-3 nights...very persistent...even when taking hydrocodone. Woke up with a new tight feeling in my esophagus at the breastbone area....like there's food stuck there or something. Also experiencing a slight heartburn. Will try to get answers & suggestions from the board today.

On the bright side, I'm down another pound -- to 210.

It has really been so long since I saw the scale go DOWN that it is freaky to me. It's a great feeling but a very small voice of panic is in the back of my head. Have no idea what that's about except maybe the concern over how little I have been eating. Odd. Will try to sort out those feelings today.

It's Easter Sunday, in the high 40's, windy and wet outside. Very, very odd weather for us this time of year. I'm feeling like a crappy mom because i've been so focused on myself that I didn't do anything for the kids for Easter. But they're teenagers now...hopefully they are not taking it personally. DS is no problem, but DD might be a little miffed....but she would never say anything. She had a fun day yesterday tho...out with Mia all day - Jillians, beading, dinner, movie, beading, sleepover. She'll be ok. Had to confront DS about some paraphenalia I found. We had a good conversation, but I don't need this stress right now. I pray that he stays on the good path he's set on with the new job, new car, grades are way up, etc. Oh, how I pray. I think it's medication issue - hopefully can be resolved with appt this week.