So this week has been pretty hard, but yesterday I realized some of my pain is already gone, and that's amazing! For a couple of months I had been getting bad, all-day-all-night pain in both hips/thighs, almost like a constant muscle soreness except minus the exercise that usually causes that sort of thing. When I was making my list of NSVs for the first time, I put that one up top. It was so bad some days I felt hobbled, and I'm 26. I didn't know what it was, but I wanted it gone.

Yesterday I stood up to walk around and realized that I had just stood up with no. Pain. Not only that, but I had BEEN standing up with no pain all day, and my relatively pain-free state has thus far continued. HELL YES. As hard as this first week is, I have this little victory to hang on to.

My other little victories/goals, scale and non-scale, in the rough order in which I hope to achieve them:

• Get below 250. I've been above 250 for a year.
  
• Start a series of every-morning pictures when I go back to work.
  
• Fit into my favorite pants again (the size 18s that had started to hurt when I wore them)
  
• Get below 230. I've been over 230 for a year and a half.
  
• Find an exercise I like!
  
• Get below 220. I've been over 220 for three years.
  
• Buy NEW favorite pants ;]
  
• Review my series of every-day pictures: six-month mark
  
• Have my ankles and knees not ache every 8 hour standing shift I do at work.
  
• Get below 210, which I haven't been under since I started college in 2005.
  
• Donate most of my too-big clothes. (keeping some for comparison!)
  
• Feel -- not even see, just feel! -- my hip bones again. I KNOW YOU'RE IN THERE GUYS.
  
• Get below 200. I've been over 200 lbs since 17.
  
• Fit into a pair of size 14 pants.
  
• Get below 190. My lowest weight ever in my adult life was 187 at 16 years old, and I looked good. It's a shame I didn't know how good I looked, actually, but that's what you get when you're a slightly body-dysmorphic teenager. Sure, I was still pudgy, but I was awesome pudgy and I should have flaunted.
  
• CELEBRATE THAT ****.
  
• Get below 180 -- uncharted territory!
  
• GOAL: 175-170