"My time is now."

I have said these words so many times in the past 14 years.

“Starting Monday, I will…..”

“After this one big meal, I will….”

Now, I have been doing that again. I had surgery on Dec. 20, 2012. You would think that would me my official “My time is now”, but honestly…it wasn’t.

I have lost a total of 43.8 lbs. I am SO happy that the weight is coming off – but I am not happy that I am not following the RULES! Since surgery, I have NOT hit my daily protein goals or my water goals. I haven’t started really working out. This is seriously horrible! Sure, I see my weight loss, and I am happy that it’s coming off, but I also am seeing my loose skin starting to show, my hair is starting to thin out, I am exhausted 24x7, and I am dehydrated! So…I am officially kicking myself in my butt. I am going to go HARD the next 3 months. I am making this commitment to myself and all of you (if anyone else is reading this)…I am going to stick to my schedule and put myself first. I am joining the gym that is next door to my job and I am also getting a trainer once a week. I will hit my protein every day, I will drink my water every day, I will walk every day, I will do some sort of exercise Monday-Saturday (but walking only on Sunday). I am going to put an honest effort into this. I want to see what I really can achieve if I truly put my heart and soul into being healthy. My schedule is going to be crazy. I know I will hear some tell me that I am going to overdo it, or that I will burn out. Both can be possible…but I will say that if I really want this, I will push through it.

I’m going to BLOG about this as much as possible. I am meeting with my trainer tomorrow for my evaluation. I will post all of my starting stats. I will also give an update at least once a week on how I’m doing. I’m going to stop weighing myself everday – and just check on Thursday’s. My Dr told me to stop weighing all together and start paying attention to how my clothes are feeling. I completely agree and understand what she’s saying, but I know this is a promise I can’t keep. I will keep that in mind, however. I will also take measurements and photos on a monthly basis. I believe this show my true progress.

More soon.