I let my guard down....

Really? So what happened? One word life. For the last 4 days I’ve been temporary depressed. Why because I am missing my best friend Lesley like crazy . She is my support system and I am so mad at myself because I missed her phone call last night! I really wanted to talk to her.

Anyway this past weekend I did some grazing but I did choose healthier alternatives tho seriously I did! For example I love flaming hot Cheetos so I brought me flaming hot puff corn instead 42 pieces is 150 calories not bad right.

Then Sunday came a.k.a my trigger day I did better preparing this time I walked 4 miles Sunday morning and I worked out gain on my Wii fit I burn 565 calories total. Just in case I decided to drink a whole bottle of wine again. (Which I didn’t) However I did do a lot of grazing.

So why did I graze? I am an emotional eater and I deal with things differently than other people. Yesterday was a close friend birthday he would have been 25. He died 3 years ago due to an overdose. Sunday and Monday was really hard for me but I handle it okay. I didn’t go overbroad but I did let my guard down.

Okay I got that out of my system and I refuse to end this post on a negative note!

On the bright side yesterday was on 2 month bandiversary! So how do I feel amazing! I text my accountability buddy and I told him that I was upset that I gain 4 ounces since my last weigh in. He started laughing at me and told me it’s better than gaining 40 ounces. He is right tho and I know what I need to do differently but I am going to wait until next Thursday and discuss it with my nutritionist and my surgeon.

I got my guard back up and I am moving forward. I am have play date with my 17 month old nephew tonight. Hopefully it will stop raining so we can go play outside.

Thanks for reading.