So my Granny died this past weekend.

My dad's Mom.

She had been in the hospital for two weeks with pneumonia and bronchitis.

We found out she had lung caner on my dad's birthday (2/7)

She had to wear a breathing mask for a week after, until she passed on Sat (2/11) (Aunts B-day)

I've been so stressed and tired from school, not eating enough, worrying about my dad's heart,

having so many bills and not being able to pay them or find a job.

Now to deal with her death, family stress, and on top of everything else, I find out that the burial costs is close to $25,000 cash.

Weight wise, I've gained two pounds

but I've also been menstruating for two and a half weeks so a lot of it is bloat (I hope)

Still having pain when eating or drinking thick fluids

Though dark chocolate has no issues going down (Weird eh?)

I was supposed to go on vacation this coming week

to El Salvador for my cousin's wedding.

Had to cancel though since the money had to be relocated.

Humbug!

This week sucks.

So did last week.

And next week doesn't look any better.

The burial will be on my mom's 50th Birthday!

and she was so excited for this one, but again, it will have to be postponed.

I feel like such a Debby-downer

A hungry downer.

And i find i'm now scared of bread

and all bread like substances.

I have phantom pains when i see hamburger commercials on TV.

Told my dad that the only black sweaters i have are faded to grey with holes in them,

so they'll fit it at the burial since they're so sad looking.

He just cracked up laughing, since its true!