BanDiva is Sleeping

Today officially feels like I haven't eaten in a week! Wow where did these hunger pangs (pains) come from? I was totally fine with my appetite until now. It feels like my body is going through some type of emotional food drug withdrawal! Maybe my day started too early and I've been awake for too many hours, I don't know, but I definitely hope this is not an indication of what's to come, I have another full week on liquids!

Okay (as I step away from my sounding board) let me think about my successes for today! Let's celebrate the positives...thinking....thinking....umm....well, oh yeah! I didn't cheat, I actually stuck to the program, right! I didn't cheat! I should feel good about that right? Well, honestly I probably didn't cheat because I was deathly afraid of the consequences. Besides that, stress overwhelmed me, and my usual emotional eating habits started tapping me on the shoulder PROFUSELY! The :welldoneclap: gang was on my other shoulder and I just suffered to my victory!

In all seriousness, I expect to face challenges, it was one of my reasons for this sound decision to get banded! I wanted to face the emotional eating head on, I wanted to be forced to make a better choice when faced with these situations. I no longer want to be the victim of circumstance. Plato said, "The first and best victory is to conquer self"; to me that's what this journey is all about, getting out of my own way.

Tomorrow is a new day!