Baby Steps

Will I am taking the steps to my new life, and you always start with baby steps... Yesterday I made my appointment with Dr. Srikanth in Tacoma Washington. A few weeks ago I went to the seminar with my husband Rick who is so supportive of this with me.. I could not ask for anyone to be more than him. :clap2: I have had a weight problem since birth.. OK not birth lbs but three weeks after birth tripled my weight ( thats what mom told me ) put on a diet at three weeks old..:mad: can you believe it! I have never been skinny... :angry I now am going to be. I just found out that my insurance will not cover it at all... gee what a surprise... maybe if was a smoker or drinker they would cover help with that but not weight... I don't get it.. anyway I will pay for it my self.. I'll show them.. it will be all for me.. So now what? whats the next step to starting my life over.. I think its getting my mind set that I will have to over come the little bad person in my mind saying get up and get FOOD.. even when I"m not hungry.. I don't even know if I really know what hungry is... I have been really doing some soul searching and find that maybe my mind is scared of me being thin.. what will It do for her... I told Rick the other day I don't want praise for this because I can't take it. As soon as someones complements me i turn to food. what is that about... But with prayer and support I will find the strength to accept it and turn to something like a thank you! So I can't wait to meet with Dr.MS ( he said we could call him that for short.) at the seminar I met two sisters who had done wonderful.. neither of them had lap band but their sister did and was doing great.. she was at her mountaineers group going to climb Mt.Rainier.. together they had lost over three hundred pounds. they were so inspirational for me.. Will I will post next Saturday .. I might get brave and go to winter bandster.. it here in town why not..... DeAnn