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Day 6 of Pre-Op Diet: Make it or Break It

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It’s day 6 of my pre-op diet and I have never been more depressed in my life. I never knew food could have such an impact on a person. I don’t ever feel the urge to eat anything unhealthy, I just crave some type of solid consistency. I have always been a picky eater, but right now, I would submit my stubbornness for the taste of a solid. It’s so frustrating because no one knows what I’m going through. My family members continue to eat amazing food around me as the strong smells float through the air of my house. I feel like I have never cried so much in my life. I feel so angry and sad yet hopeful. I never want to feel this way in my life again. For the rest of my life, whenever I reach for something that is not good for me, I will think of this time. This has honestly been the hardest week of my life.

 

 

Shopping with my friends the other day was the worst. I was starving so badly. It was Black Friday and the mall was busy with holiday cheer. Besides the fact that I felt like a fat slob walking around with my gorgeous friends, nothing was worse than sitting in the food court chomping down on some of my favorite foods. So I did what any rational person would do - I cheated. Not as bad as you think though. I ate soup with some solid pieces of chicken breast and a few noodles. Then I had a yogurt and water. I tried my best to stick to it as much as possible.

 

 

After that, I walked into every store and watched my skinny friends try on beautiful clothing. I’ve never felt more out of place in my life. So I did what every fat girl does - I looked in the accessories section. My whole adult life that’s what I’ve done. It’s how I fight the embarrassment that I can’t fit into these clothes. I watched and was the “supportive friend” helping them look for outfits as I desperately wanted to be with them in the fitting room. Instead, I was holding their shopping bags and they fit their skinny selves into a size 2.

 

 

Don’t get me wrong, I have the greatest friends in the world who have been so supportive. They ask me everyday how I’m feeling and sit with me on the bench as I get tired from lack of food. One thing about this pre-op diet is that it sure takes the energy out of you. I don’t think I have ever slept this much in my life. And sleeping seems to be my new favorite hobby. You can’t feel hungry when you sleep.

 

 

I always like to end things on a positive note - the note being this: I WILL NEVER BE FAT AGAIN! I will be skinny, and next year at this time, I will be trying on dresses with my friends in the fitting room. It might not be a size 2, but it sure won’t be a size 20. For once in my life, I would love to be a single digit in size that doesn’t go on my feet!

 

 

PS - Incase you're wondering, the only thing that has kept me going is that during this pre-op diet, I've lost 11 pounds. I know it's probably all water, but it's 11 pounds that I don't ever have to carry with me again!

 

 

 

 

 

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Hi there,

I am not yet on my pre op diet but I so relate to your feelings...as I'm sure lots of people do. I have spent years listening to thin people tell me how they need to lose weight and feeling like I can't really say anything for I am the 'elephant' in the room. Nobody says how do you feel about your weight for fear of humiliating me or hurting my feelings. Thus I say things about myself, putting myself down, so they know I'm aware of my size. I am so eager to begin this journey...have a little fear of what lies ahead but know that this is the right choice for me. Know that you are not alone and that good things are coming. As the saying goes...this too shall pass. Best of luck to you on your new journey...you're almost there!!

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i was on the pre-op diet for 14 days and, i must say, i didn't find it difficult. i would have boost, fat/sugar free yogurt, sugar free popsicles, creamed soups (mixed w/chicken broth instead of water) and i wouldn't strain them - it'd leave the mushroom and/or chicken pieces and puree them w/an immersion blender. if you don't have one of those, you should get one - it'll make your liquids and pureed steps much easier.

i found a protein powder this weekend at wally world - it is chocolate peanut butter and two scoops has 52gs of protein!! it's made by body fortress and costs about $16. if u're this tired, u're probably lacking in protein. have u started taking vitamins? i started way before my pre-op diet - 2 complete flintstones and 1 calcium citrate w/vitamin d.

this is what works for me and is by no way perfect. we're all different and can only offer suggestions.

good luck to you - oh and 11 lbs is awesome!! i was thrilled to find out i had lost 17 that i wouldn't have to c again!!!

lori

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Thank you so much for your kind words. I wish you the very best in your new journey as well! biggrin.gif

Hi there,

I am not yet on my pre op diet but I so relate to your feelings...as I'm sure lots of people do. I have spent years listening to thin people tell me how they need to lose weight and feeling like I can't really say anything for I am the 'elephant' in the room. Nobody says how do you feel about your weight for fear of humiliating me or hurting my feelings. Thus I say things about myself, putting myself down, so they know I'm aware of my size. I am so eager to begin this journey...have a little fear of what lies ahead but know that this is the right choice for me. Know that you are not alone and that good things are coming. As the saying goes...this too shall pass. Best of luck to you on your new journey...you're almost there!!

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Hi There,

Can you tell me the name of the protein powder you bought? We don't have a Wally World where I live but maybe it's something that I can buy online? Congrats on getting rid of 17 pounds! That's awesome! biggrin.gif

i was on the pre-op diet for 14 days and, i must say, i didn't find it difficult. i would have boost, fat/sugar free yogurt, sugar free popsicles, creamed soups (mixed w/chicken broth instead of water) and i wouldn't strain them - it'd leave the mushroom and/or chicken pieces and puree them w/an immersion blender. if you don't have one of those, you should get one - it'll make your liquids and pureed steps much easier.

i found a protein powder this weekend at wally world - it is chocolate peanut butter and two scoops has 52gs of protein!! it's made by body fortress and costs about $16. if u're this tired, u're probably lacking in protein. have u started taking vitamins? i started way before my pre-op diet - 2 complete flintstones and 1 calcium citrate w/vitamin d.

this is what works for me and is by no way perfect. we're all different and can only offer suggestions.

good luck to you - oh and 11 lbs is awesome!! i was thrilled to find out i had lost 17 that i wouldn't have to c again!!!

lori

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Hey SFD,

I had a VERY difficult time on that Optifast diet - 14 days of 4 shakes a day and ONLY sugar free clear fluids...I too cheated (almost everyday...A few crackers with cheese)...It was so hard...By day 8 I slowed down the cheating, I think mentally I was already past the halfway point and something clicked in me to just do it...The last half seemed to go a bit more quick.

Try to hang in there - I see so many different types of pre-op diets where some allow food and others don't - Either way my surgery went through just fine.

You'll do it...And if you need to cry - cry it out...OR like me just allow yourself a little nibble and move on with your day.

I was banded on November 19 and have already lost 10 pounds since that day. It is so worth it and know that you WILL be in that changeroom of your favourite store before you know it and those tears will be because of happiness not sadness...I too can't wait for that day.

Good luck during the rest of your pre-op diet...When you really feel a binge coming on just leave your house - go for a pedicure or to the bookstore (if you like to read or any store that you can pick up a hobby type of thing) just keep busy & try not to think of food...I did make a shake on ice and put it in a "to go" cup and went out for a pedicure and after felt SOOO good about myself and had pretty feet to boot.

You'll do it,

Hopee

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Thanks so much Hopee! You're words are too sweet! thankyou.gif

Hey SFD,

I had a VERY difficult time on that Optifast diet - 14 days of 4 shakes a day and ONLY sugar free clear fluids...I too cheated (almost everyday...A few crackers with cheese)...It was so hard...By day 8 I slowed down the cheating, I think mentally I was already past the halfway point and something clicked in me to just do it...The last half seemed to go a bit more quick.

Try to hang in there - I see so many different types of pre-op diets where some allow food and others don't - Either way my surgery went through just fine.

You'll do it...And if you need to cry - cry it out...OR like me just allow yourself a little nibble and move on with your day.

I was banded on November 19 and have already lost 10 pounds since that day. It is so worth it and know that you WILL be in that changeroom of your favourite store before you know it and those tears will be because of happiness not sadness...I too can't wait for that day.

Good luck during the rest of your pre-op diet...When you really feel a binge coming on just leave your house - go for a pedicure or to the bookstore (if you like to read or any store that you can pick up a hobby type of thing) just keep busy & try not to think of food...I did make a shake on ice and put it in a "to go" cup and went out for a pedicure and after felt SOOO good about myself and had pretty feet to boot.

You'll do it,

Hopee

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