Pondering Out Loud...

Tomorrow I go for my psych evaluation and then I can FINALLY make an appointment to see the surgeon. I'm hoping something opens up before the 20th of December as that is the date I was told was soonest available last time I talked to the liason. Keeping my fingers crossed that that one isn't taken! :scared2:

I saw someone else's blog or post about how they were fat in their mind but thin in the mirror. I find myself with the opposite problem. While when I look in the mirror I do see a very overweight person (even have a hard time recognizing myself at times) in my mind I am much thinner. When I see pictures of me I am soooo much bigger than what I see in the mirror! Which brings me to another thought how many people out there, deep down, worry that they will be turned down for the surgery (because they are not heavy enough) but then find they are approved because the really do actually need it. In my heart I know I need it but somewhere inside me I keep expecting someone to say why are you doing this? You don't need it...they don't however...so I must be on the right track LOL When your bmi is 40.7 I guess that is pretty much a sign isn't it??