Over these last few weeks, I've been completely consumed of LAP-BAND. Recently I've brought more books and been to more websites than I ever have before. I feel as if I know this procedure like the back of my hand now, even though I would never perform it. I didn't expect for days to fly by. I keep thinking about how each second takes forever and then I look up and its been a week.

I go to random shopping websites just to check out the clothes that I can't fit in now. When most people see an obese person they say, "Why do they need surgery? They can just go on a diet?" Well that may be true but I've always gained my weight back just like many Americans have as well. When I was little I didn't dream of forbidden places or being a princess, I would look at girls my age who did that and wish I was was them, with their skinny bodies and pretty faces. My first diet I would have to say started when I was in maybe the second grade and had escolated ever since.

I've come to learn over the years that fairy tales don't exist. No handsome prince is going to come and rescue you from a towers. I've learned that you must make your own sacrifices and just live on. Take what you can get and just keep holding on to it. No one can put me down anymore nor can they make me feel less than I am. I'm ready to take the next step, not for some handsome prince that will never happen or for my mother, who I love to death. This is for me, as well as seeing the rest of my future. This is my ticket to that place.

Some Questions for my Benefit that No One seems to Answer:

If someone could please help me and answer these, that would be awesome and amazing of you to do so. Thank you!

1. Why do doctors want the liver smaller?

2. Why do doctors sometimes want patients to go on a diet before surgery?

Websites I've looked at and are helpful: These are just a few :cursing:

www.livestrong.com/article/15571-what-eat-after-lap-band/

www.obesityhelp.com/

www.lapband4u.com/default/lap-bad-surgery

www.obesitylapbandsurgery.com/

www.occforum.com/index.php?act=idx