so i am five day post op. i have had a few unlovely things happen to me already- mainly learning to sip slow. i have learned that if i go fast, hard or too much- it gets stuck and i burp. so i guess that is telling me to slow down and pace my drinking.

a little back note- i am been overweight, fat, fluffy, big boned, pretty face, large body for most of my life. there was a three years span where i was "thin"-but i got that way by vomiting, diet pills and working out like a mad woman. needless to say i gain it, plus some back. at my largest i was 325--guessing-i stopped weighting myself at 314. i was in a toxic relationship with a selfish man. so my comfort was ice cream and bagels. odd combo right.:thumbup:

so after many years of saying "ok this year i will lose the weight and become healthly"..i never lost much weight..and well yoyoing isnt healthy..the thought of the lap band creeped into my head.i talked to a dear friend of mine Nora-who had the bipass and her words of wisdom lead me to really think about it.

then one monday in aug i took my super beautiful, smart 14yr old cousin shopping for school stuff. while in the dressing room we were in there together trying on clothes. now ladies you all know that clothes for us larger ladies look very granny like. my cuz is a sz 8 high school freshman who was having the time of her life trying clothes on. outfit after outfit i watched her face glow with how nice she looked. i put on my outfit and i felt like a oversized beached whale. :tongue:

i felt so sad for me- i was sad for that girl inside of me that cant have fun trying on clothes. i didnt want to ruin it for my cousin -so i acted super happy...it didnt work- she felt something was off. i told ya she is smart..i justplayed it off as if i had a headache and wasnt feeling hot..half was true-i wasnt feeling hot. in fact i felt very frumpy, overlooked and not womanly.

after i dropped her off i called my friend Nora-and i cried- i just let it all go- i told her i cant do thing anymore. the pills, the diets, everything-im so done with this weight. she listened and when i was done being a drama queen-she asked-"so what are you going to do about it?"-

WHAT?!?! i wanted her to pat me on my back and tell me its ok to be fat..but she inturn asked me what am I going to do about my weight...i was a bit upset-she was being a friend, and she was sick of hearing the same old story.

so i started to look into the Band. that shopping trip happened Aug2010-