Am I slacking?

October 11, 2010. I have been banded for a few years now. I have lost almost 55 lbs., but most importantly, to me, is the fact I have gone from a size 22 to 14!! I am having a problem now that I need to work through. A few months ago I became very sick (Dr. thought it was the flu). I had quite a bit of vomitting. It was believed that my stomach had become irritated, and it affected my band. Came to a point where I could not keep anything down, not even water. Became very dehydrated, which made me even sicker. I went to Dr. to have a release. Now I am sooo fearful of having a fill. I was so sick!! I do not want to go back there. I need to start at square one. I know that, but now i am terrified to do it!! I need some help/encouragement!!.:cursing: