Week 38...GOAL...115lbs Lost

Well....my day is here! As of this morning...I have hit my goal weight of 165lbs!:wub:

I knew this day would come but until you actually see it, you just don't believe it!:thumbup:

Funny, I thought I'd be jumping up and down and screaming over it, but I am pretty calm about it and happy as a lark.

I had to go for a tad bit of unfill yesterday. I am down to 5.2cc's. My body is adjusting a bit and I may have to go in again for another tweak by getting more taken out so I can maintain.

It's amazing to me that I don't need as much fill as others. I mean I just assumed we all were pretty much on the same with that but not needing much more than 5cc's is amazing to me.

Anything too much over 5.4cc and I get stuck and throw up in my sleep. Which is NOT a pleasant feeling at all.:scared2: It's scary because I think, what if I don't wake up and I choke?!

So now, the major question is....do I need to lose more or should I be happy with what I am now? My initial goal was 170 but then I thought 165 would be better for BMI purposes. Now I am not really sure if I want to stop. What about 160? Plan for the monthly weight gain, blah, blah, blah. Am I turning into one of those skinny bitties who obsesses over the scale!:crying:

There are some places I feel need to get a little thinner but I am not sure if it's because they are not quite as toned as I want them to be or if it's really just a tad bit flabby.

Everyone knows from previous posts I am not exactly happy with where my tummy is but I want to give it a full year before considering anything else.

I tried on a size 10 and danced all around the dressing room when they fit. I am thrilled with that....so what is it in me right now that wants more? I am going to have to meditate on that. I mean, I don't want to look sickly! Shape and curves are good.:thumbup: RIGHT???? I am feeling really silly right now...why am I not as happy as I thought I would be?

On a different note...my doc left the office where he was. He is on an extended vacation right now and when he comes back he will decide where he will be. Not sure how I feel about that. I love him but I love my nurses too. I bet my main nurse will go with him and if that happens I will move my files with him. Didn't see that coming!:thumbdown:

As always....I AM BLESSED!

Why not go out on a limb? Isn't that where the fruit is?:tongue2:

Surgery Date: May 21, 2009

Starting Weight: 280lbs

Dr. Michael Metz - St. Luke's Hospital Denver, CO:thumbup:

Follow my progress thru photos:

http://www.lapbandtalk.com/members/5...lbums3475.html

I think you look great! Maybe just do some toning then see how you feel. Muscle burns more than fat anyway and maybe your body will get a little smaller that way. I understand your question though....I just wish I was at that crossroads. It looks like it will be years before I get my surgery. After losing my job and insurance...well....BLAH. But I am thrilled for you!

You look great. Do you plan on having a tummy tuck or have you already? That is 5 - 10 pounds more loss.

*oops, just noticed your comment on waiting. That's what I get for speed reading.

OMG!!! Congrats!!! You look amazing! I'm so happy for you! I am so amazed everytime I see someone who has done so well so fast. Its great to see your story! Keep it up and keep us updated! PS GO GIRL!!!!

You look fantastic and should be proud. Your goal is also mine and I know I will be grateful when I achieve it too. You are an inspiration to us all. Thanks for sharing your success.

Laura CONGRATULATIONS!!! You look TINY!!! Give yourself a huge pat on the back and a big hug...you worked hard for this and got to goal quickly!!! Enjoy it! -BG

You are adorable! Congratulations to you and thank you so much for sharing your great success with us!!

BRAVO!!! this day was coming and now it is here so ENJOY!! i f you think you have more weight to loose or just specific places to tone up, then do it. YOu have proven that if you put your mind to it, it will happen.

Vomiting in your sleep??? I am at 4 1/2 CC and i have a feeling it will take over 6 Cc to get to that sweet spot i hear everyone talk about.

where is your Dr moving to? would it be hard to follow him..

Go out and celebrate!! buy yourself a sexy little black dress