Bad day today.

Sam seems so edgy and busy all the time. I think its his meds. but worry its him getting sick of me. It makes me sad. Makes me want to eat eat eat eat. Only now am I realizing what an emotional eater I am. Sam wants to build another 4 plex, part of me wants to do that too but I worry its not the best thing for our family/relationship right now. I worry that he wants to keep so busy so that he can be too busy to work on our relationship. I feel like we are ships passing in the sea, don't reallly know each other anymore. I feel like im the same as always but hes changing now because of his medication. Often I wonder if his libido is coming back but I repulse him because of my weight?? Everytime I try to ask him about it he says he doesn't know if its coming back or not. Says sometimes he thinks it is sometimes he thinks it isn't. We got into an argument saturday night, he held a grudge until today. For me once I say my peice the arguments over and I move on, for him it seems he just stays mad for so long. I think its his meds because he's never been this way previously. I hate his stupid tumor! I hope when I get thinner things will be differant. Maybe Ill be more fun and outgoing and turn him on again. Patience patience patience.