Darkest Before the Dawn

Bad day. Couldn't shake the blues. DH went to a rodeo and I didn't go because I didn't think I could stand to see everyone eating hamburgers, hot dogs, BBQ, etc., etc. I don't wish I had alot, I just wish I had something. Anything that is NOT SWEET! Never thought that thinking about eating something sweet would make me want to gag. Guess that's a good thing. I doubt it will last, though. Anyway, reading LBT and getting info from other bandsters helps so much and I know things will get better. Just one of those days, I guess. I want to remember this though. I want to remember the price I have had to pay for letting myself get to this point. I want to remember the price so the reward will be all the sweeter.

Listening to Matt Maher (contemporary gospel -- really good, check him out) and gazing out at the beautiful weather God has blessed us with today. I'll pray for strength and know things will be better tomorrow.

I hope today is better for you. I struggled all this week when our church home group brought in meals for my family all week. I am big on italian and pork roast with BBQ and wouldn't you know that all but one meal fell into that category??? Anyway, it did help me because first of all, I couldn't eat it even if I wanted to and it made me realize that my relationship with food has been unhealthy for a long time and this is my time to work on that and make better decisions for my health. You are going to enjoy the reward of your decisions. Good luck to you. I Joined the day before your surgery and was glad to see you online soon after. I had mine on Monday the 13th. Look forward to sharing ideas and thoughts. Take care.