Why Am I Up So Early???

I'm pissed....I could sleep as late as I wanted today but I'm up at my usual 5:00 AM'ish time. I'm so jealous of folks who can sleep past 8AM. It sucks being a morning person - now I have to be quiet because everyone else is asleep. Waking up early gives me more awake time to think and worry and stress and worry some more.

My mom's cancer diagnosis gets worse by the day. The breast cancer has spread to her lungs. Next week we get tests done to check to see is it is in her bones and brain, and then decide what treatment to pursue, if any. She has put total trust in me to chose the right direction for her, and I'm struggling with what is best for her. Any words of advice from anyone who has been in a similiar situation would be welcomed. How can things change so fast???

Band-life has taken a back seat right now. I eat enough mushies, but not nearly enough protein. I'm staying at 212 now for a couple of days. I've had a few episodes of swallowing too much too fast and then I feel the pain. I'm ready for meat, and normal high protein foods - I'm really tired of sweet, or faux sweet stuff.

So, onward I go. Things will normalize in due time. Hope everyone has a good weekend, stays cool, and loves life! Laura

HI My Little LB Buddy, I was up with you this morning at 5:00 am. I had to drive my son's friend to the Train in Boston. I love getting up early the air is cool and brisk.

You have a tremendous amount of stress on your mind. Take it easy. Be kind to yourself answers will come.

I had an entire day of soft food yesterday. It tasted so good. I went real slow fork down after every bite. It takes so long to eat anything that way. I am hoping to have as good a day today as I did yesterday. Sun is up and it is going to be a GOOD one. I have you and your MOM in my prayers.

Thinking of you. Kathy imaluckydog

Hi!

I am so sorry to hear about your Mom. My Mom battled breast cancer for 12 yrs. She did it for my middle sister. My older sister an I wanted to make up her own mind but my middle sister won out. Fist of all you need to be so so strong for your Mom. Be postive! If she chooses to go through treatment it can be very very tough for you and her. but always try to remain positive. It is a very hard descision to make and I feel bad for you that you are the one making it. Stay tough and please know you can ask me any questions been there with my Mom. She is in a much better place now!

Take it one day at a time- lot's of prayer and stay focused on the positive- and loving you mom.

take care!!!