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The moment I dread...

My mum flew back to England today. Actually as I type this she should be just about taking off. The moment I hate is when I come home from the airport and she's not here anymore...the house is so quiet and for a little while it really hurts :think We had such a good time together and because hubby works such long hours, it was lovely to have the company. Don't get me wrong, I was getting to the point where I wanted my house to myself too but that doesn't stop me missing her...I'll be fine in a little while :phanvan just wanna have my little cry out! All the temptation has gone from the house, so things will be easier now...no more chips and cookies lying around waiting for a possible low moment to scream their presence. The bread is finished too and I'm not gonna buy anymore because I know it's my weakness...Hubby can go and eat all he wants at his mums...(She lives two floors above us!). My ankle is feeling much better too and so from tomorrow I can gently kickstart the exercise routine again...another thing I'll miss mum for - walking is so much easier when you have a friend to talk to...oh dear:cry Anyway, I'll go and do some jobs around the house and catch up with you all later...

A1ikou

A1ikou

 

what's happened this weekend then?

Ha..surprise...fancied pink today I have had a very quiet weekend and have been pretty housewifey too. I got lots of jobs done that I have been putting off for a while and feel better now they are accomplished. I have eaten well and done the exercise I planned on doing. This means I had a day off today. I think everyone deserves a day off and I like spending Sunday with hubby doing not a lot. Not much else has been going on around here. My TOM is due and all today I have been feeling teary and headachy. I guess I should be thankful that I dont have many bad days each month and I know things could be a lot worse. An early night will cure the headache and hopefully tomorrow I'll be much better again and back on that treadmill. I peeked at weight today and am exactly the same. I wasn't expecting any loss, especially this week and so am not disappointed. I'm becoming much more resigned to my weightloss being in spurts here and there... Boring one today, sorry if I kept you!

A1ikou

A1ikou

 

weekend again

Another weekend! It's also the 2month anniversary of my getting my band. I'm down exactly 21kg or 46lbs so have nothing to complain about there. Only this last week have things come to a halt but then without exercise I didnt expect anything else. Considering how much temptation was in my path when my mum was visiting I didn't stray too far! I might have indulged in a few crisps (potato chips) here and there:eek: but nothing I'd consider tragic! Now my ankle is feeling much better I intend to start walking again. I do have one silly problem..it's gotten hotter still here...I don't do hot:phanvan I can postpone my walks until early evening I guess but that's not my favourite time to go out...ummmmmm?!?!?!?:Banane09: Have put myself on a strict diet for two or three days to try and kick start weight loss again...so far I'm doing OK - watch this space!

A1ikou

A1ikou

 

Saturday Morning...cant think of better title!!!!

Weekend again...Sometimes they fly by and sometimes they drag. Guess it depends what you are doing and this weekend I have absolutely nothing planned so looks like a slow one. Still, when I'm home I tend to be able to stick to my own rules better so suppose that's not a bad thing. I didn't eat a thing last night at the dinner. I drank six glasses of water. Can't say it was easy but hubby understood, he was trying to keep food down wind of me lol. I don't have a problem with people eating and I can't but the smell last night...my favourite foods, all freshly cooked. It was a torture :phanvan Never mind...there's nothing on the schedule for the next few weeks so should be OK. Was tempted to look at scale this morning as I lay in bed wondering how things are going but I didn't. I got up and left the room immediately and then had other things on my mind and so another day passed... Have walked and drunk 3/4litre of water so need to drink some more. TOM back ache kicked in so maybe just a short walk this afternoon...I'll see how things go.

A1ikou

A1ikou

 

Still in good mood..WOW!

Me again...well who'd you expect in my journal ummm? I got all headachy last night and though oh, oh, here we go...but no it went away like all good headaches should and this morning I was right as a bobbin. I wasn't sure what I was gonna do today but as soon as I got up I decided it was Swimming Time :clap2: So got a taxi and toddled off to the hotel. I got there around 11:30am and it was nice and quiet. I sat for a while and then went for my swim. I stayed in for about an hour and did lots of arm work and swam quite a few lengths. During this time it got busier and busier...by the time I got out the pool area was full. Still, it was a blooming hot day so don't blame them one bit. Just glad I got there early so I got a table to myself:) I ordered a chicken salad and read my book until it came.:hungry: I love the food there...simple but fresh and tasty! I confess here and now that I succumbed to a bread roll and it was bloody lovely :heh: I ate for about 25mins and then stopped. There was still most of the food on the plate and when the waiter came he thought I didn't like it! I told him it was delicious and I'd just had enough. Greeks don't do take out! Still (I know repeating myself...again!) blows my mind how little food I generally want these days! :phanvan Am still deciding whether to treadmill or not...my arms and legs ache but the spirit is willing...think I'll tell it to bog off for today and chill out with the tv instead!

A1ikou

A1ikou

 

another day in the life of...

My friend Mo wrote that the mood around here has changed and wondered if it was her...no, it's the mood. Shame but it'll change back- I hope. I love it here. I have never been able in my life to be so open about my weight, the struggles and the triumphs. So many people here know my weight and it was my most guarded secret EVER!!!!! :nervous I made new friends and had such a laugh that it became addictive. Now I am just being careful what I read and trying to keep things upbeat. I've had another good day food wise...brekkie yoghurt,lunch two crackers with eggplant salad and dinner mincedbeef with peas and mushrooms in tomato sauce. I put the rest of the meat into plastic bags and into the freezer. I tried doing a low impact aerobics video today but got worried about my ankle and knees part way through and so stopped. Guess I'll stick to walking and keep my ankle strapped up...somethings you just cant seem to win but I aint gonna give up. I want to be fitter and I so want my scale to do down Sunday morning...having scales with kilos isnt fair...we have to wait 2.2lbs for it to go down one notch:confused: Oh pooh bear!!!!!!!!!!!

A1ikou

A1ikou

 

waffle, waffle..blah, blah, blah

It's a waffle day today because I dont have anyone to chat to :phanvan :cry and nothing much newsworthy to say. I was walking on Arthur today and my back was killing me...bloody periods...and so after 20mins I gave up and said it was enough but am proud of the fact that at least I did something. In bygone days - like not so long ago - I would have been on the couch all day moaning. I made a nice pork dinner for hubby and I and then helped him get through some extra pharmacy work he'd been given by the hospital. Took about 4hrs so Im glad I could have helped or he would have been in a right pickle. Tonight I ate a couple of pieces of the cold leftover meat and am more than satisfied with that. I didn't walk again this afternoon but fully intend to do my hour at my new speed tomorrow. I'm also considering giving my aerobics video another go and see if my knees are any better. If I do it once and then wait for a day or two I will be able to judge what's going on. I finally got the guts to post some progress pics on the before and after page and apart from my expression LOL I'm happy with how they turned out. Until I saw them side by side I confess I was wondering where the weight I've lost had gone from cos there's still so much of it hanging around :biggrin1: That's about it for now. I'll be back...now where have I heard that before????????????????

A1ikou

A1ikou

 

Air-cons and stuff

Oh the font thingy is working again :clap2: I am suffering a little from being in the air-conditioning so long. I am usually fine during the day but sometimes on an evening I get a headache and my temp goes up to 37.3ish. My BP is also playing up because of TOM...all the month it reads 110/70ish and and then TOM it's up each evening to 136/80...oh well c'est la vie. Still doing well with food and water and walked 2x today too. I am gonna try and get through the day without air-con and just have it a few hours when Jordan gets home... Apart from that-life is good

A1ikou

A1ikou

 

Monday, Monday looks good to me.....

Monday- yep again. Come round every week it seems! I had a busy day doing all kinds of bits and bobs. When I went to do my lessons this afternoon hubby bought me a treadmill :clap2: to be delivered Friday all being well. Now down to some serious walking! That's all really...2nd fill day tomorrow. Will report back on that on Wednesday.

A1ikou

A1ikou

 

Don't read today's it's boring....

Ok, not so many icons today LOL...maybe one or two though cos they are soo cute! I had another late start today:notagree ...what it is with me this week? I got in my two walks and am happy to say that I had a little more energy today...was trying to dance on the treadmill at one point (thank God I'm alone in there). Apart from that it was a very quiet day and I didn't see anyone. hubby was at work til late tonight and so it was TV and PC most of the day. I need to get out more! Food was Ok today. I had one of my not very hungry days and didn't eat a thing til 2pm. I finally had a baked potato with one teaspoon butter...then threw the butter away cos hubby bought it and it shouldnt be in house anyway and later I ate a salad with a slice of ham. drank lots and that's about it for today! Oh yeah...one good thing that happened-After a year of not being able to, I finally can wear my wedding and engagement rings again without worrying they'll get stuck. :biggrin1: Means a lot!

A1ikou

A1ikou

 

The here and now.

I'm 39! Nothing so strange or rare in that you say. Many people are 39, the good, the bad, the ugly, the beautiful, the rich and the poor. Aaah yes but it's my 39! I have been thinking about wls for quite a while I have a friend who had the band fitted about 18mths ago and DH as a pharmacist has seen a few others. I always saw it as a last resort. I wanted to "lose it by myself!" I didn't want to seem weak or a failure and so I tried everything I could think of. At one point I was hardly eating anything and still the weight stuck. Then came the insulin...I have been taking it for about a year and although it helped my sugar levels it most certainly did not help me. After Christmas this year I felt worse than I ever had. I had always managed to do what I wanted before and now I felt everything was too much of a challenge. If I wanted to leave the house I thought about it for ages first - where am I going, can I sit down, how will my back be? I cried a lot too. This was not how I wanted to live out the rest of my life. So one day I decided. I called DH at work and told him that I knew I had said I would wait until I was 40 and then do it, but I wanted to do surgery now...at 39 (t'was my birthday time), so that I could have a life to live at 40. That was that. We went to see a doctor on Tuesday 14th March and he scheduled my surgery (with gallbladder removal 'cos pesky thing had been playing up) for the 20th! No tests other than those I'd already had and just a gentle diet with liquids for 48hrs before going to hospital. And now I'm banded.

A1ikou

A1ikou

 

Whoo Hoo

My treadmill was delivered this morning! It's huge and fills my spare room but it was only one designed for my weight that we found and liked :biggrin1: So I did my first 15 mins to see what my back, knees, ankle etc thought of it and they were all absolutely fine :clap2: So that's me sorted then! Got new music on my mp3 and I'm soooo ready LOL

A1ikou

A1ikou

 

Hello world...

My 2nd fill has left me with a feeling of a 'something' but it's very hard to put into words. I want to say I can feel it but that's silly! I guess there is a general tightness that wasn't there before. I did two days of soups and they went down fine. Today I opted for soft foods..so I had a yoghurt for brekkie and that was Ok. I blended a tin of tuna with teaspoon mayo light and some dill and onion salad mix I have. I ate about 3 teaspoons and was full. Ate the rest a few hours later. For dinner I chopped an egg and a slice of low fat cheese and blended them again with one teaspoon mayo light. Everything went down fine, so tomorrow I'll try so meat and veg and see how I go. I love my new treadmill. I did half an hour yesterday at a steady pace and today did 40mins. I built up a sweat but know over the next week I will be able to do more...the handles make such a difference for my back and neck not aching. Me, my mp3 with summer songs (upbeat and catchy) and my treadmill are gonna have a great summer Tomorrow I might go back to 'my' hotel and swim some more but not sure yet. I was bought 3 new bathing suits as a gift and have only tried one of them out so far :cool: so need to swim more! I must be getting enough protein right now because my nails are long and strong and this doesn't happen so often!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I gave myself a french manicure today and am well pleased...love long nails on women! My period is due and usually at this point in the week I'm tearful and tetchy but hormones are in reverse and I feel so upbeat and positive I can't quite believe it! :clap2: :clap2: :clap2:

A1ikou

A1ikou

 

Upbeat and Positive

I joined the Gone for Good club...was "persuaded" LOL! They post their weightloss on a Wednesday but I'm used to Sundays. Anyway it works out Ok cos I always have a peek day and that can now be Sundays. Plus, this week I really got going again on Wednesday after my fill so weighing in next Wednesday will make it a good week. The scale is moving in a downwards direction again :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: but then with what I've eaten this week and the work I've put in, I'd be real disappointed if it didn't. I'm gonna wait until Wednesday to see if I lose anymore...watch this space (or the GFG!) I'm doing well with my walking and building up my time. I'm at a good heart rate when walking and build up a sweat by the time I finish. Once I get to a happy walking time, I'll work on increasing the speed a little. Some days this week I haven't taken any insulin and when I have had to it's been minimal...10units most (from 90 before band). I'll chat with my doc next week to see what general revisions he wants to do. My BP has been great except for now..it's my TOM and each month it goes up? It can be 110/68 in the morning and get to 146/80by night. I dunno why other than my gyni said it happens because of hormones. So for now I still need help with this periodically (no pun intended! :cool: ) I'm doing well and feel really upbeat and positive about just about everything I can think of :clap2: Not much more to ask for really!

A1ikou

A1ikou

 

More of my waffle...

Yesterday and today I feel generally tired but am doing my best to keep up with the GFG challenge...what have they done to me?:cool: Usually when I feel like this I would curl up on the sofa all day and sleep :notagree Now I'm planning how to walk and what I'm eating and sleep doesn't figure in my day at all?!!?!?!?! "If" tomorrow morning (weigh in day) my weight says what it did the other day I'll be more than pleased...I'll be in shock!:omg: But then we all know what fickle creatures scales can be now don't we? Apart from that not much to report...my PC connection that's DSL and should be steady, keeps dropping for a couple of mins and is driving me insane! :angry There I am, chatting happily with friends and next thing you know I'm gone...pooooof! Hubby is the technical one around here and so he'll decide what we're gonna do about it all. That's all...happy reading :biggrin1: Later!

A1ikou

A1ikou

 

Orthodox Easter

It's Easter Saturday here and I have succumbed...a bit! I ate two chocs but they were little individual squares so not tragic. I have two more for tomorrow and refused to be ashamed about them...I decided that when I want to give myself little treats I will thoroughly enjoy them and then not fall off abnd wagon completelyfrom feelings of guilt. I was worried the doctor had damaged my port site by the way he went about trying to find out how it had moved but am more relaxed today. the slight pulling snesation I had whenever I stood up the last couple of days has eased off enormously and so hopefully I was just a bit bruised. DH calls me delicatalison because I have always had very sensitive skin:) I had soups for a couple of days after 1st fill but was hungry today and so had a scrambled egg and later some pureed peas and a slice of ham. Everything seems to be going down just fine and haven't felt any real restriction but am still not worried 'cos am eating fine. I got weighed today and have lost another kilo so that's Ok too:clap2: We are going out just before midnight to the square outside our home for the anastasi...A holy flame is taken all around Greece and spread from one candle to another to announce the ressurection. We take our candles and the priest at midnight passes the flame around. Then we come home and make the mark of a cross on the house door. It's a Greek service I really like. Only thing to spoil it this year might be the rain. Never mind eh!?!?!?

A1ikou

A1ikou

 

we're all back from our summer holiday

Hi all, Got home this afternoon after a 7hr trip so a bit tired. I havent dared go near the scale LOL. I ate well during the week but yesterday went mad...fries, calamarakia and my long waited for ice-cream! Will write tomorrow when I feel better about my holiday and what the scale finally said!

A1ikou

A1ikou

 

And so the days roll by...

Well my weight stayed off until the magical Wednesday weigh in and so now I'm 55lbs down and 9 of them accredited to last week:clap2: :clap2: (very useful little icon that!). Today the weather was cloudy and cooler and so I actually went outside to take my exercise. I walked down to the shops, strolled around, bought some socks and some bright pink holiday flip floppy things and then began to walk back. Then the rain began so I ducked into a cafe and had a frappe. I'll still do a walk on my treadmill later too! I have not peeked at the scale since Wednesday but after such a big loss, I'll be happy as long as I don't gain anything (don't see why should but you never do know with these things). I'll peek on Sunday and then wait 'til the next weigh in. Food is going pretty good too. I am eating loads of fish which I love and my fav. veg peas....many more and I'll turn into one:rolleyes: I'm also eating more salads than I have in my life but am enjoying them too, so that's good. I went to the periptero (little kiosks we have in abundance here) to get a couple of beers for a friend who was coming. On the way there I was thinking....should I get myself a treat? Haven't had one for weeks and weeks...a small packet of chips or a no sugar, fat free ice cream? Then I just thought...nah, don't really want, so I got the beers and left. When I REALLY want something I will have it so that I don't deny myself anything but it was good to know how easy it was to refuse myself something I knew I didn't really want too :nervous .

A1ikou

A1ikou

 

one of those days...

They come around from no-where...I think I'm feeling blue 'cos I know DH is disappointed with life in general and weekends in particular. He never seems to find time to do the things he'd like and every so often it gets to him...and then to me as a consequence. I did all I should today but just don't feel so happy about it all...the what if syndrome hit home big time and for the very first time realising I lost 55lbs and no one single person noticed a thing :cry made me realise what a job I have to do...my year anniversary for my 40th birthday...what if it's not enough time to see a huge difference after all? Oh hey it's just a blue day and you've all had them. It'll be better tomorrow.

A1ikou

A1ikou

 

Every day a little easier...

From what I can see, things get a little easier every day. It used to take me 10mins to walk around the square outside my house, now it takes 6mins and my back doesnt ache so much. I've had to increase my walking circle. I could only do 3mins (shame:cry ) on my stationary bike five weeks ago. Now at 3mins I'm singing my head off and on my way to 10 mins. OK, compared to some of you guys this is nothing but I am doing it...it is a little easier and it makes me feel good each time something improves. That's not to say everything is a doddle...oh no...now I have discovered I can eat toast it's very hard not to! I love my bread. I have figured 2x a week until restriction says otherwise I can have a cheese slice (low fat) and a ham slice on a piece of toast and really enjoy it. If I start denying myself foods now I'll fail. I would much rather do my best to stick to rules and let myself have what I want. This way I don't feel like the band is punishing me in some way and we can remain buddies :Banane59: I am eating so much less than I used to...a tin of tuna today with onion and dill and little mayo took 20mins...LOL before my band 20 seconds more like!!! I enjoy the tastes now because I'm taking time to recognise them. I used to think about food all the time and yet ate so fast I never tasted anything. Chewing and slowing down the eating process makes things better and I was happily satisified after my tuna which i doubt I ever would have been before. Long may it continue :D :clap2: :clap2: (Don't you just love these icons...) If you see me in the chat room, please come in and say "HI"

A1ikou

A1ikou

 

getting things back on track

Hello there! I checked the scale and it says I neither lost nor gained on my holiday so I guess I'll take that...like I have a choice!?!?!? We had a good time on our holiday. The villa we stayed in www.kookis.gr was brand new and in a lovley location. We were near the beach and it was easy to catch a boat to tutle island and see the creatures swimming around. The weather was warm and sunny but like most islands there was a grat breeze that cooled things down. We swam and ate and slept and read and went on sightseeing trips and passed a delightful week. And now Im home and back on the road to slimishdom...I dont expect much change by Wednesday weigh in this week but would be glad to see a drop by next week but I will see how things go. I didn't want to walk much today but was fine once I got going. Food was easy cos I havent been to the supermarket yet and there's nothing in the house to eat...it's a big holiday week here and Mon. tues especially, everything is closed. So i will be on a water diet til Wednesady LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A1ikou

A1ikou

 

The dreaded Wednesday weigh in...

We got to Wednesday already, how did that happen:confused: ? I was more than surprised to see I'd dropped 2lbs this week. I guess the treadmill doesn much more of a job than swimming as a general rule..well for me anyway but am still gonna go to my pool cos it makes a change. I went for a walk outside today and enjoyed it although it was very hot. Then later I had an NSV...Jordan always does the shopping when I do my lessons because I could never cope with standing so long...my back would be killing me 10mins in. Today he needed to go see his kids and so I said drop me off at the supermarket and I'll see how I get on. I did the lot. Shopped, did the check out and packed the bags. Then I wandered around the little stores around the edge of the supermarket and in the bag store a new bag just jumped into my trolley and refused to leave...what could I do except buy it???????????????????????? Jordan despairs...he said was I gonna do the shopping every week now- until I asked if I could visit the stores too every week :eek: :guess :confused: That's all..see ya next time in Ali's wonderful world of complete and utter nonsense and ramblings...great place to visit but get out while you can!

A1ikou

A1ikou

 

Waffle...not edible kind!

Am not in the best of moods as I write this.It's 12:18am, I've had a busy day and I cant get tucked up nice and warm in my bed.:phanvan Why? :Banane59: Well, I live on a pretty little square in Athens, it has trees and a fountain and makes me happy. It has a downside though...we live above a store. Doesn't belong to us. It was rented out before Christmas and the guy made a taverna! It didn't bother us too much until he decided, to drum up business, he'd have live music on a Saturday night.:think Drives me nuts. I'm on the 1st floor and his little stage is right below my bedroom. So I thought I'd come and waffle. (waffle to me being writing about anything, everything and nothing in particular.) I'm having a good time with my mum visiting and she is being really good at motivating me to get out and walk. We went shopping today..the first time I've ever been to the local shops with her. We were going to go into Athens to Monesteraki which is the place below the Acropolis but Athens was closed off today. :faint: There was a big anti war rally and no taxis would go near the place. We will try and go on Tuesday instead. I'm doing OK and the weight loss continues to be steady. I get weighed Sunday mornings (tomorrow) so I'll see what the new total is and if I'm happy with it. I haven't been an angel this week...nibbled a few chips and a piece of chocolate but I haven't been a disaster either. I have walked each day and my back is definitely easier. I wore some jeans today I couldnt wear before. They are still not perfect but wearable! My knee support bandage fits better now too which is the silliest NSV but hey I takes what I can get That's about it for now...maybe later!

A1ikou

A1ikou

 

Monesteraki here we come!

We finally got into Athens today. I wasn't sure last night if we would go 'cos my foot was swollen and my knee aching from the extra walking. This morning when I woke up, things were better and the weather was gorgeous so I said we'd go. I had a bit of a bad food day yesterday (fresh baked bread and butter and then later chocolate!) and so wanted to make up a little. Now getting a taxi in Athens is an adventure in itself believe you me :help: You have to wave them down and then shout like crazy through the window where you want to go. If they like the look of you they might say Ok and in you get. Otherwise you stand like a Wilbur on the pavement as he merrily drives off to find someone else! You can pre-book them but a) it costs more and it takes away from the fun So mum and I stood here and there and then here again and tried for a good 20mins. Finally an empty cab came and after checking his watch (morning traffic is a nightmare) decided we were OK and in we got. Now, even after 6yrs here my Greek aint perfect. I can talk real good (talking never was a problem ask the chat room gals) but still need more vocab to understand everything others say. Me and the taxi driver got on just fine and were laughing and joking all the way there. :eek: Monesteraki is an area just below the Acropolis full of little streets and little stores. They sell all kind of touristy things but it makes for a great wander round and has a great friendly atmosphere. We walked up to where the little train takes folk around the area. Mum has always wanted to go on this but it has never been working. Low and behold today it was. We had time to go for coffee and then we climned aboard. Not enough others did the same :cry Too early in season and he needed 8 of us. 6 of us offered to pay a little extra but he said he couldnt go...so we waited a while and then gave up...poor mum - next time! We bought what we wanted and went to eat...what a rip off! Greek food places are usually great...bread and water always offered before an order is taken. This place was all for the money. I got mum chicken souvlaki and fries. I ate a few bites of chicken and two or three fries and that was that. Disappointed for mum though. Anyway we finally (LOL) found a taxi home and all in all had a good day. Omelette and salad for tea and now TV and computer night! Thursday if weather is fine we're off to poshest hotel in Athens for 'brunch' and then a tram ride to trendy Glyfada for more shopping. Maybe I should start up Ali's tours...any takers?

A1ikou

A1ikou

 

and today?

I'm feeling better today. My knee still aches but I did my walking ...slowly! I feel bad in general now if I don t walk and that from someone who hated walking LOL I went for a walk outside this morning and then did the treadmill this afternoon. I ate carefully today...yog and protein drink so far and we are celebrating hubby's mum's name day today so I will eat some chicken or pork tonight when we go upstairs. It's been a looooooooooooooong time since I lost it like that. TOM brings mood swings for me and Im resigned to them and just get on wioth it but TOM is well over a week away so not that! Anyway it left as quick as it came so onwards and upwards...well downwards better....ummmm

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