Ive had my lapband for 3 years now in August...I hate it...I want it out so bad, and cant afford the surgery. Im so miserable, I cant eat, I cant drink...I dont even have a fill in. I went by the guidelines my doctor gave me, I never lost a lot of weight. I throw up all the time, its so embarassing when your on a date or just hanging out with friends. I cant take it anymore, sometimes I just want to rip it out. Ive had complications since the first day I had it, but ignored it. When I brought them up to my doctor a couple of months later, he said I was fine and that I was basically lying about what I was eating. He all but told me I was a liar, and that I wasnt pretty because Im fat...I endured this for 2 years! I finally stood up for myself, he blacklisted me on my medical records, now doctors wont take me because of the notes on my records despite my begging and pleading. I hate how people are given power with something as simple as a Ph.D. I wish I would have researched it more, I wish I had thought it out more. I dont necessarily regret it, I just wish I would have used a different doctor with a more supportive attitude and staff. Im so embarassed, sometimes I tell people I dont have it anymore just so they dont ask why I didnt lose the weight. The smallest I got at one point was 165, and I didnt stay there long....thats when I was puking every single thing that I attempted to swallow, even sucking on hard candy. Im not saying I want to eat a burger, or something greasy and gross....I just want to enjoy eating chicken again and salads and fruits...I want to be able to eat something that is cold and not throw it up. (Ive only been able to hold down things that are warm). I want to live again. But Im completely without insurance, and the only way to get my band checked for problems is to go to the ER and pretty much demand a upper GI test. I dont have money, Im a single mother and full-time student. Im so embarassed, I feel like a failure...I hate this, I wouldnt recommend it to ANYONE! Im thinking about possibly getting it taken out and having a mini-gastric bypass in the next five years....it just makes me cry to think I have to live with this for 5 years...or more...I hate explaining to people that I dont know whats wrong, I hate being a failure, I hate being fat...Ive done everything in the book at least twice to lose the weight...and it just doesnt come off the way its suppose to...Im hoping that when I get insurance again, if I get it again, that I can have some blood tests run on my metabolism and thyroid. Its gotten to where Im dizzy a lot, I fell down last night...I eat maybe one meal a day, I dont snack and I usually throw most of what I eat up...including liquids. I have had problems with my body rejecting foreign objects (like piercings) before, and Im thinking that my body rejected my lapband or something...IDK I just want it gone! I cant go out to eat with friends, I have to sit and suffer....watching everyone else eat and get something to go or wait until I get home and eat some Cereal for fear of getting sick. Now Im just rambling...I have tears rolling down my face, I never cry...Im not a crier at all...but it hurts so bad, emotionally and physically...my stomach always feels like someone is stabbing it with a knife or punching it with a tight fist....sometimes it feels like it is litterally tied in a knot! I just hope and pray for insurance soon, for answers to my questions....I want to live, and enjoy life again...I dont understand why nothing ever works for me...Ive been on every "lifestyle change", diet suppliment, fad diet, in the world...most of these diets or lifestyle changes or whatever you want to call them require you to eat a lot more during the day than Ive ever been able to eat....Ive never been a chronic overeater, ofcourse Ive overeaten sometimes, but never a lot, I usually stuck to 2-3 meals a day and never any Snacks....I never was a fan of "real soda" so I usually drank diet (which now I drink coke zero when I do get something, but one can lasts me ALL day)...Damn America and high costs of healthcare! and poopoo on the insurance company for calling weight-loss surgery cosmetic although they consider me morbidly obese...I want to be normal for once..Im tired of being the fat friend...much less the failed fat friend....Sometimes I think its better to just be fat, than to be fat and have had weight loss surgery because then people just talk about how much you basically suck at life...and how you must stuff your face with pudding and such......Ive got news for them, I dont like pudding, I dont like ice cream, I sure as hell cant stand snack cakes......Im not a very unhealthy person.....but I cant lose the weight.....

Ill stop, Im repeating myself....Im just so frustrated right now.....Im tired of puking my guts up every single day!

For anyone who is still subscribed...

I took my word and didnt log on for a LONG time.

I wanted to thank everyone for their effort, time, and input. I am sorry for the way I responded, I was an emotional mess and I suppose I just wanted to say: "here's a doctor, he/she finances, see if he/she can take you." Or someone to say, "you should try eating this or that."

I have sense been in and out of the ER, not one time will they check my band despite my pleading and begging.

My doctor has been reported to the state medical board, but Im yet to know anything.

I finally lost 10 pounds, but I wish I had lost it healthier because as soon as I am able to eat anything Ill gain it all back because my body is in starvation mode.

I was diagnosed with low blood pressure problems and have to eat plain salt to keep myself half-way functioning since I cant hold anything down and if I do, Im in EXTREME pain afterward.

Im still looking for a doctor, Im thinking about looking around the Dallas/FW areas since I have exhausted my area and Houston to the fact that they no longer answer my phone calls at any of the offices or they answer and put me on hold until I or their automated waiting system hangs up.

I am hoping to get on health insurance soon through my dad's job because I cant afford mine at my job. I cant take out private health insurance because of my lapband

Im better now, and Im sorry for my prudence and craziness...I was looking for some form of easy miracle I suppose, because I was so bad off.

Im on my way there again, I havent eaten an actual meal since AUGUST...I have knick knacked on various things...but I usually dont even try until I get in from work and my daughter is in bed because I cant be a good mommy and a good employee when Im in pain and puking.

I hope to find a surgeon to take it out very soon, Im hoping that insurance comes through in the next few weeks because I am almost to the point that I will have to go back to the hospital to get more fluids. I can only manage to drink about 10oz a day of anything. I really dont know what is going on here, but I do know that I will not advocate this surgery in particular any longer. I have done a lot of research, there are a lot more statistics out since I had my band surgery. Back then there wasnt really any bad things going on because it was still fairly new...but now it surprises me...I mean it is reported that within 3 years of being banded that 80% of people will have to have theirs removed or replaced! Had I known that then, yeah, I wouldnt have done this.

I think Ive almost hit an unvolantary bulimic/anorexic point though lol! Its gotten to where everytime I look at food I either think, "EWWWWW!!! GROSSS!!!" or "Ill try to eat it, but Ill throw it up later anyway."

My teeth are seriously suffering, Im going to have to get so much dental work done after all this is over it is unreal! Ive already had 3 procedures done in the past year, and I need like 2 or 3 more.

It has gotten to where I just cough and throw up on myself, EXTREMELY embarassing. And now when I just get up to leave the table, conversation amongst others continues like I was never there to start with.

I want to be a part of society again. I used to think that being fat was terrible, that I was a freak, that I was weird.

I know realize just how "normal" I was compared to what this thing has turned me into.

Bad business.

However, once again Im sorry for my behavior. I was frantic, in a state of panic. A young single mother with no one and no feesible help whatsoever. I mean who would be in a happy go lucky mood after no food, barely any liquid, fainting spells, and the lack of medical attention lol?

Once again, Im sorry. I was wrong, and I acted franctically.

Never_Again .... I've been thinking about you for months. You are in people's prayers. We do care what happens and want life to turn around for you !

Ill stop, Im repeating myself....Im just so frustrated right now.....Im tired of puking my guts up every single day!

I suffered a slip and had to have my band replaced last week. My band was empty and it was the same thing, I threw up almost everything, couldn't drink anything cold. Even milk would sit in my stomach all day and later come out curdled into big chunks because it wouldn't pass. I was able to eat because my pouch was dilated . . . but everything came right back up.

It definitely sounds like a slip to me. You need medical attention right away. If you have insurance, even if they don't cover wls, you can get an endoscopy done with a diagnosis of acid reflux and it will be covered under almost every insurance plan. This is really one of the next steps you need to go through.

Last but not least, suppose you don't have a slip. Throwing up everyday causes your stomach to swell. It will continue to be irritated everytime you throw up. It just gets worse instead of better if you are having a regular problem. Perhaps you can go on a diet of nothing but warm liquids for a week and then try to move onto mushies and see if it is enough for some stomach swelling to go down.

My band doctor has also told me to take children's motrin for stomach swelling on a very occasional basis if I am having a problem as well. This is usually on the no-no list for bandsters so he only approves the use on a very occasional basis. Perhaps you can call your band doctor and ask how they feel about this option.

I wish you the best of luck.

Back on insurance and searching for a doctor like crazy...I had to quit my job due to the strain it was putting on my band due to stress and the fact that I was so sick all the time.

Funny thing though, the day after I quit I was able to eat a VERY little bit and hold it down and ever since then I have gradually been able to eat. food is so good lol!! I have figured out (undiagnosed for now) that I believe that I have developed a little allergy to eggs though, everytime I eat anything with a significant amount of egg or mostly composed of egg I get violently ill....

I dont mean "lapband throwing up" (Im sure all of you know that being "real" sick and lapband sick are two TOTALLY different things and feelings) and the next day the other option to get rid of toxins comes along.

I am going to have to have major dental work once I am done with all the throwing up, my molars are getting so worn down that I can actually feel the problems.

I think I finally have a light at the end of the tunnel.

I believe we are now going to hire an attorney to handle my case being as my doctor may have violated my rights as a patient.

Things are looking up...I have my bad days where I pretty much stay over the toilet or in bed, sometimes it goes on for weeks....but atleast Ive come to realize that it doesnt last forever, although I know it is going to sporadically continue until the band is removed.

Good luck to all.

I'm glad things are looking up for you, and I hope they continue that way. I wish you all the best.

Thank goodness that you are on insurance and can go to a doctor again.

It still sounds like a slip to me. You may want to go in for a barium swallow and endoscopy as soon as possible. If your insurance doesn't cover band related items, then complain of extreme acid reflux for the diagnosis and it should be covered. When you get the tests done, make sure that they give you a cd copy of the test (ask before you get the test). At least this was you can get diagnosed.