Just a random train of thought here but... has anyone ever gone through life just knowing and thinking "well yea I'm fat but I don't think I'm that big". Then suddenly out of of no where you see a picture of yourself and you're just like "OMG :hurray: who is that person!?!" Yea not so fun... lol. Oh well those days will be over soon hopefully! :grouphug:

I can totally relate. But now it's the opposite reaction, who is that thin person in the mirror and is that actually me? x_x; When I was heavy though, I would just avoid mirrors and cameras at any cost. This especially came into being after I finally decided it would be nice to have an up to date picture of myself. After I looked at the pictures, I just became totally depressed. I couldn't believe how big I was and I never noticed it. I didn't take a single camera shot for a long time after that.

YES!! I generally only allow pictures from the boobs up and on the rare occasion someone captures more than that... I am disgusted!!

Hopefully by next summer someone will be able to capture me in a bikini and I won't throw up when I see it!!! :scared2:

YES!! I generally only allow pictures from the boobs up and on the rare occasion someone captures more than that... I am disgusted!!

Hopefully by next summer someone will be able to capture me in a bikini and I won't throw up when I see it!!! :scared2:

Lol sounds just like me, I am the same exact way! It's just horrible to see cause then you're like... "so that's what everyone else sees when they look at me?" Ugh can't wait till I can actually take full body pics and like them!

Absolutly. Look at my avitar pic. I F*in cried when I saw it. Even though I was already scheduled when that pic was taken in march, I never knew I was "THAT BAD". I look at pics from 3 years ago (when I weighed 127lbs) and I cry. I'm just counting down the days right now. and I have my fav pair of "skinny" size 10 jeans that I can't wait to slide back into.... We all have those moments. It's just our destiny to NEVER be at this weight again. But. The goal is once we are comfortable again in our own (new) skin, to not pass judgement onto others. I have an aquaintence to had the bypass, and honestly, I loved her better when she was heavy, she was genuine, now she's cold and shallow, like her personality oozed out of her with every pound she lost.

I can totally relate!

Another thing I hate is when I'm going out for the day, feeling really good about myself and then see my reflection in a window or something while I'm out.....who the fk is that fat ass because it isn't me!!

I can totally relate!

Another thing I hate is when I'm going out for the day, feeling really good about myself and then see my reflection in a window or something while I'm out.....who the fk is that fat ass because it isn't me!!

Haha yea when that happens to me like, walking to my surgeons office that had walled mirrors and Mirrior tiles (like they were trying to tell you "see?? 360 degree view here, you need to lose weight!" lol) and walking in front of something that big and can show my whole body is like, ugh disgusting. I'm just like *cover face so I cant see mirror* "Look away, look away!!" But it gets easier now since ive started losing weight. Cause i can see the diffrences, even though they are small. But they are enough for me to not cower away from the mirror! lol

I'm glad I'm not the only one lol

I've definitely been there. I've looked at pictures of me and cried over how fat I looked. My girlfriends and I go out alot and always take pictures. There's nothing like being the fattest friend in a picture to crush your self esteem

i found it intersting how I don't feel like i'm big and then i see a picture

i feel ya on that one. i used to know i was big, but never really thought i was that much bigger than everybody else. haha man i was wrong. not until now did i really understand how big i really was.

Edited May 22, 200917 yr by Bucktober

Me too, I felt that way many times. When I would go out ( that wasnt that frequent), I would say oh I look good but then I see myself in mirrors and im like WTF?? Is that really me? I would get super depressed and wouldnt go out in a long while. My boyfriend and I would just stay home and avoid going out to clubs because of our weight. But that will change for sure. Eventhough sometimes I look back and im like damn!!