:thumbdown:Ok first I want to say that I know I am stupid! I ate a fricken candy bar today. AM I KIDDING????? Oh and a small chocolate shake this weekend. Not to mention the past couple days I started snacking (DR's ORDERS---->A NO-NO) I am so disgusted with myself. After how much I try to fight the temptation and how hard it is for me to go to the gym everyday but I do.... I go and eat a candy bar and shake and ruin everything! I ate it slowly so it would go down and then cried :drool:. ARGH!!!! Why cry now fat pig, that's what I kept telling myself. My friend said it's because I'm on my period and I do have terrible PMS but I never have had cravings since my surgery like I do now. It's like I'm posessed or something. I feel totally awful and feel like I won't be able to control myself anymore. I really feel like a drug addict..... I went to rehab and WAS doing so good and then I just fell off the wagon! How can I have the strength now to get back up, dust myself off and do this? What is worse then anything is that I'm scared now.....my will power is gone:ohmy:. I'm actually really scared. WHAT HAVE I DONE? I feel like such a failure. :eek:

At the start of my band journey I would read a post like this and shake my head and say, "How can a person waste such a wonderful opportunity! However they should not feel bad."

NOW after being banded for 8 months I have come to my senses! Perfection is not an option for most of us. I know that most of us go into this with the full intention of eating the "RIGHT" foods "ALL THE TIME". To be honest I sometimes eat food that isn't always on the list of things I should be eating, but I am happier this way. I never feel like I am missing out. I always do my absolute best to eat foods that keep me healthy and on the right track, but sometimes the best thing to do is eat a small piece of cake.:wink2: If you feel you must always be perfect you will always feel like a failure. (I know I have been there.) Remember to have fun during this journey, as long as you don't over do it you will lose the weight.

As for the exercising: I can not stress the importance that exercising plays in your well-being. Forget about doing just to lose weight- exercise just gives you a great feeling. As you lose weight the exercising will become easier and easier for you. Take advantage of your new found energy. BTW- exercising takes less energy than hating yourself!

Jennifer,

Honey <<hugs>> it's ok, we all indulge every once in a while. I think the trick is to of course make it a once in a while thing and release yourself from the guilt of having something that you normally wouldn't. That is one thing I have noticed about my averaged sized friends I never hear them say "I shouldn't have eaten that" I think it's because they realize that one little thing isn't going to ruin them.

With that said do you need a fill ? I know that things which normally wouldn't tempt me when I have proper restriction do when it is time for an adjustment.

You are doing so well 3 months out and almost half way to goal.

You can do it !!!

I'm glad u r feeling better... One thursday at work I wanted to eat one of the biggest hershey chocolate bars w/almonds 1/2 lb.. open a bottle of diet pepsi, and buy some cigg's. and put like 4-of them in my mouth and light and smoke away all at one time and i don't even smoke...lol.... Things can be so stressful and the first thing I and so use to doing is running to food because it use to make me feel better... Now I just face the issues head on, and that is so hard to do.... But this too shall pass....

So good when we DON't let food control us!!