Yesterday, before picking up my hubby from work (we carpool to save gas), I went by Pei Wei and got a children's order of terryaki chicken and rice... I ate it on the way to pick him up and hid the bag in the back seat and put a piece of gum in my mouth so he couldn't smell it on me. We then went to go work out for an hour... I didn't inform him that I had something to eat already and then we went to Subway and got sandwhiches for dinner, technically, my second dinner. And no, I didn't get just a 6-incher, I had to get the 12-incher. I tried to tell myself in my head that I worked off the kid's meal, but who knows how many calories is in a cup of rice! and I'm sure that terryaki sauce didn't help...

I'm so worried that I will screw up on this band. Why must food be so dang yummy.. If nothing had a taste at all, would I still be obese?? I am a carb-oholic and knowing that I have to cut all carbs out starting the 17th scares the shite out of me!! I know I will cry and probably get depressed over it. I don't know if I'm ready to say goodbye to the Outback's pumperknickel bread and Subways honey wheat hoagies... I will mourn these things immensely. But, I know once I get banded, I will have to let those things go and realize how much easier I'll be able to get around and fit into seats and stuff...

Reading what everyone is writing has really helped me to get even more excited about all this... I feel better about getting banded and know I can do this. As for the 12 inch sandwhich, I didn't eat the WHOLE thing.. I ate maybe 10 inches of it. HA HA.. yeah yeah, I know, it's still about 7 inches too much.. but dang it was good!

Jack, I like what you said about "Nothing tastes as good as being thin feels". I know what being thin feels like and you are right. When I was 125 pounds it was nice fitting into seats and putting on a crappy outfit and still looking good! I felt so healthy.

For so long I've been saying there is nothing emotionally wrong with me.. that I just like food, but last night I realized something. When I was thin I was always sexually harassed by men and women hated me and treated me like crap because I was pretty. As I got bigger, women liked me more and men respected me finally. It felt good and safe. Maybe I'm scared to lose weight because I fear I will lose my female friends and I hate being harassed by men. This is the only thing I think it could be... I didn't get obese until my mid 20's and I was never raped or abused... Gee.. why am I rambling here about this personal stuff. LOL..

Anyway, I just thank all of you for your comments. You are all wonderful people.... even the ones that posted stuff I didn't want to hear! :-) I just appreciate that you care to respond.

I am so glad to know that I'm not alone. I am nearly 5 months out and have been beating myself up over everything I put in my mouth. I was super good about what I was eating and when but lately I feel like I am out of control. Yesterday I ate two hershey kisses (before I would have eaten at least 20) and I sat in my car and cried about it. I feel lost sort of. I made an appointment with the dr. who gave me my psych eval. I am hoping that he can help me with some of the issues I'm having with food now.

coolcrystal.

I can't add anything to the other posters. You're prebanding, all rules are off until you get banded...really.

You are on the verge of a different life, you're gonna freak in many different ways. Be gentle with yourself.

I just wanted to post and say I love your humor. You'll do fantastically well.

I am so glad to know that I'm not alone. I am nearly 5 months out and have been beating myself up over everything I put in my mouth. I was super good about what I was eating and when but lately I feel like I am out of control. Yesterday I ate two hershey kisses (before I would have eaten at least 20) and I sat in my car and cried about it. I feel lost sort of. I made an appointment with the dr. who gave me my psych eval. I am hoping that he can help me with some of the issues I'm having with food now.

Jennibee, why would you be upset about eating 2 hershey kisses? I thought it's okay to still enjoy little things like this every now again with the band? I mean, if you completely cut out all the fun stuff, isn't that sort of depressing? Like it would make you want it even more. I guess I don't see what would be wrong with eating a hershey kiss every now and again... I'm not banded though and this is what I'm thinking now.. but I have two friends who were banded and they still enjoy little treats like this every now and again and have both lost over 100 pounds and are happy. Don't be sad sweetie... Big hugs!!

coolcrystal.

I can't add anything to the other posters. You're prebanding, all rules are off until you get banded...really.

You are on the verge of a different life, you're gonna freak in many different ways. Be gentle with yourself.

I just wanted to post and say I love your humor. You'll do fantastically well.

Thank you!!!!

I"M NORMALLLLLLLL , well, as normal as can be... wahooooooo...

I feel like I have butterflies in my belly all the time that are making me nauceous with nervousness over this surgery...... but... I'm NORMAL!!

Ooh, I have a question...

This morning when I woke up I was so hungry I felt like vomitting... when you get banded, does that hunger go away? I hope it does... When I get hungry it makes me feel like I'm going to lose it.

For being pre-op you're completely normal. Now if post-op you can down a 12 inch subway sub you're going to need to see your doctor immediately for a fill.

My pre-op diet was 2 slimfast shakes a day, plus one meal of what-ever I wanted (YUMMY) and I did manage to loose 17 pounds pre-op that way.

I have to say that my hunger is really gone. It took a the first month to 2 to get rid of stupid head hunger. But now, nearly 5 month post-op I have to literally remind myself to eat. I realized last week I literally forgot to eat, well I did eat 1200 calories, but that was in the whole week. No wonder I was so sick by friday night. I find it helpful to write down what I'm going to eat in the morning to plan for the whole day. Otherwise I find it difficult to remember to eat. Yeah this coming from a woman who knew how to use the fast food drive through and where everyone was located in a 10 mile radius. And hiding food wrappers in the car was an old habbit of mine.

Jennibee, why would you be upset about eating 2 hershey kisses? I thought it's okay to still enjoy little things like this every now again with the band? I mean, if you completely cut out all the fun stuff, isn't that sort of depressing? Like it would make you want it even more. I guess I don't see what would be wrong with eating a hershey kiss every now and again... I'm not banded though and this is what I'm thinking now.. but I have two friends who were banded and they still enjoy little treats like this every now and again and have both lost over 100 pounds and are happy. Don't be sad sweetie... Big hugs!!

I don't think it was the fact that I ate the candy that upset me so much really. I think it was that I wanted to eat lots and lots of it. I was feeling like maybe I don't have a handle on eating and scared that I'll fail at yet another weight loss attempt.

I am feeling much better about myself today. I know what I have to do and how to do it. The hershey kisses didn't kil me or set me back too much. And to be honest, THEY TASTED WONDERFUL..lol!

If you can eat all that you need a fill.

If you can eat all that you need a fill.

She's not banded yet...

you will be fine,just get it out of your system.Post op diet is hard enough with some withdrawal and pain, start your preop diet before surgery so it is not a shocker and fisrt nature after the band.Good luck.