Gosh I am so nervous!! I have surgery at 10:30 this morning and I am running through all the motions, packing what I need and getting ready. But my brain is in full on panic. I can reason and know this is the eighth decision but my brain is freaking out and I have sudden panicky thoughts of “Why can’t I just lose weight the regular way? I’ve lost 20 lbs! I can continue!” and “This is a HUGE life change, we can’t do this!” I know it’s all the emotional pieces and the 20+ years of overeating. I know this is the right decision because I’m 28 and about to take good control of my health in a major way. But gosh it’s getting to me.

Right* not eighth haha

Best wishes for safe surgery @Gnat ! Start of your renewal :-)

You've been researching and preparing for this for months. Trust your saner self. Everyone has a little freak out when it becomes real in the final hours...which makes sense, because surgery is kinda scary:)

You've got this. It's gonna be ok:)

Wishing you a healthy effective outcome and an easy surgery. Remember to get up and walk ASAP. Sip, Suck, Stroll.

Sending you good vibes!

Good luck!!! so happy for you!

Good luck on your surgery and remember after the operation while in the hospital to Walk, Walk, Walk.

Thank you all for your well wishes! Surgery went very well according to my surgeon although I apparently came out of anesthesia screaming! Oops!!

The soreness was pretty intense and the IV dilaudid needed to be increased. I slept well though and am feeling a little better this am.

3 hours ago, Gnat said:

Thank you all for your well wishes! Surgery went very well according to my surgeon although I apparently came out of anesthesia screaming! Oops!!

That's pretty funny -- and you don't even remember it!

That's pretty funny -- and you don't even remember it!

There’s like a flash in my memory of it - it felt like a dream. The surgeon was laughing though [emoji23]

Just got my first meal! Baby sips baby sips

On 12/21/2017 at 4:52 AM, Gnat said:

Gosh I am so nervous!! I have surgery at 10:30 this morning and I am running through all the motions, packing what I need and getting ready. But my brain is in full on panic. I can reason and know this is the eighth decision but my brain is freaking out and I have sudden panicky thoughts of “Why can’t I just lose weight the regular way? I’ve lost 20 lbs! I can continue!” and “This is a HUGE life change, we can’t do this!” I know it’s all the emotional pieces and the 20+ years of overeating. I know this is the right decision because I’m 28 and about to take good control of my health in a major way. But gosh it’s getting to me.

Not gonna lie it's a hard and strenuous journey. But you'll pull through fine, and you'll be better and healthier for it.

My Dr. always said "You see a lot of overweight people, and a lot of old people. But not a lot of overweight old people" and that rang true for me. You're doing the right thing for yourself and your loved ones. Just take it one day at a time!