So I had my final appointment today with my surgeon. I'm scheduled for surgery Monday. I have a mixture of feelings. Ready, scared, excited, anxious, happy, sad. It's alot to handle. I'm so ready to be healthier. I'm ready to be a better more active mom that can get on the floor and play with the kids or can go down the water slide when we go to the water park. I'm so tired of my husband getting all those moments and memories and me just sitting and watching cuz my weight is holding me back. I'm so ready to be a better wife cuz my weight isn't controlling my self image. I've done so much to get ready for this. I've lost almost 30 pounds already. And I can already tell I'm feeling better about myself. I'm ready to be the person I used to be before the weight....friendly, and outgoing. I'm tired of hiding behind this weight and being to self conscious to be myself. I'm ready. I'm sad to say goodbye to food but I'm done with letting it control me. It's been my comfort for too long and has been my downfall. I'm ready to be the one to control me. I have so much in my life to make me happy instead of food. Two beautiful little girls and an amazing husband and great career. I've got everything I need to be happy. I just need to fight to get myself back and make me even more happy. I'm so ready for this. I'm a little scared of the changes but more scared of surgery itself.

Any kind words or advice would be appreciated lol.

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Thanks for the update Marionb88. It really helps to hear honest struggles after surgery. Mine is scheduled for Nov 7th so I'll be right there with ya soon enough. Hope you have a quick recovery and work out all the kinks

Hope urs goes well too. It is hard cuz even tho I've had the surgery I still find myself wanting to eat the food I see on the TV or when the hubby and kids are eating food I can't I want it just cuz it smells good and I remember how good it was. Even tho I'm like not hungry at all. So there are times when I miss eating what my family is and I do feel a little separated from them sometimes. I know part of that is cuz I'm still on pureed foods and it might change a little once I advance in my diet. But like some things like McDonald's we probably won't enjoy together for a long long time. Lol. And I mean it's not a bad thing it just gets sad after a while knowing that food is the thing that used to comfort me. I've been finding other ways to comfort myself tho. Like preocuping my time in the gym or going for walks.

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