Hello,

I am one week out from surgery. I'm having a hard time. It's been 10 days since I had solid food. I am drinking water, protein, broths and jello.I didn't prepare for the mental impact of that. I'm thinking about food all the time. I can't go out because the smells make me shake. I have cried the last 2 nights. I ruined yesterday for a tiny corner of brioche. I plotted and planned to do it. I snuck and hid. I didn't reach out for help or give anyone a chance to stop me. I knew that I should not have. It hurt and I won't do it again. I know that this is good for me. I had very bad fibromyalgia. I'm already down 20 lbs and have not had any pain in a few days. This is after having constant all over body pain for over 5 years. I just need help to get through this part. My sister in law said come here.

Hello.

I'm sorry you're not dealing so well. I had the sleeve Aug 9, and I remember the first 2 weeks post op to be the hardest. I felt like Jello and broth were gonna be forever and I would never be able to be a normal person again. So I thought about food all the time. Now I feel normal again and life is too. Don't worry, this too shall pass! Also, based on how you described your story about the brioche, it sounds very familiar to binge eating disorder behavior. Maybe researching B.E.D would help you shed some light on the mental battle you've got going on right now with food. Only reason I say that is because I have struggled with B.E.D for years, but am in recovery now after 5 months of treatment, with the culmination being my surgery. Just something to think about... Good luck. Everything is gonna be okay.

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It sounds like you know what you need to do and why. Try to find some activities or meditations to take your mind elsewhere. The first few weeks have so many ups and downs. Reach out to your surgical team, therapist or nutritionist if you are lucky enough to have a center with them all.

I know it sounds corny but I actually used an app for sleep, excercise meditation. It helped calm me for good rest which was key for me healing. You are healing. Your body needs to be cared for. I find it hard sometimes but I am trying to treat myself as I would a loved one I was caring for- with patience, encouragement and good advice!

Also helped me was avoiding tv. I felt like everything was food oriented. Cleaning, going through clothes, walking walking walking. You can do it!

It's great that you have reached out now! Take a deep breath abd be kind to yourself. It's in our nature to make mistakes, everyone days. You've made a mistake but you realise it and are reaching out now.

Try some mindfulness videos on YouTube. They can help stay in the moment. I'm struggling on my preop date, I haven't had carbs in 3 days. I've tried knitting because I'm not very good at it I have to concentrate more on the task.

Good luck xx

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You can do it. I relate with what you said about the smells.I feel like my nose is somehow more sensitive since surgery. Do you have an unflavored Protein powder you can mix into your broths and Jello? It might take the edge off some cravings. Just try to focus on your liquid and protein goals and activities that can distract you. It won't be this way forever and before you know it you'll be eating some real foods again. I believe in you!

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You can do it. I relate with what you said about the smells.I feel like my nose is somehow more sensitive since surgery. Do you have an unflavored Protein powder you can mix into your broths and Jello? It might take the edge off some cravings. Just try to focus on your liquid and protein goals and activities that can distract you. It won't be this way forever and before you know it you'll be eating some real foods again. I believe in you!

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I have tried adding protein to jello but it won't set. I ate it anyway but the chance to chew a little would be great. My girlfriend makes the most wonderful broths. But I am really missing solid.

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@@Adellk0405 Your hormones are playing a part in how you are feeling! Just keep reminding yourself of the goal! Try some sugar free popsicles for some crunch. Get some shaved or crushed ice and add crystal light - eat it like a frozen treat! Stay strong - this is only temporary! Look up the book The Emotional First Aid Kit: A Practical Guide to Life after Bariatric Surgery. I got alot of good info from that!

I had surgery on monday and i even dreamed of a burger! Think about why you did it! You want a better life for yourself! Its hard but we will get there!

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