1.So of course my biggest fear is not waking up from anesthesia.

2. Not going through with the surgery and letting my fear take over and regret it later!

3. My issuance not approving for some odd reason (Humana)

4. Not being able block out other people and do what is best for me.....

Now with all that being said I wish I would never have told anyone! I hate when I tell someone all of s sudden people are like ohhhh I had a friend that died from that surgery!!! WTF I have a friend that told me that and then ask the details to her friend she got lap band I was like I'm getting a sleeve which surgery is surgery but I just feel like personally the sleeve is a better!!!

Ok sorry for ranting but I can't talk about these issues with no one else!! No one understands! I want this surgery sooooo bad but when I say I have really bad a anxiety attacks I haven't even done my upper gi check yet because I'm so scared! Once I do that my surgeon will submit!!! I need prayers please

BlessedBeyondMeassure

Take deep breaths....and try to relax. come here often. We're all in the same boat together and are here to support each other. Keep your eye on the prize and focus on that.....all this we have to go through to get there will be just a blip compared to the rest of our lives.......I've been picky about who I tell.....just family at this point. It's hard because it's all I think about now.....so I want to tell everyone, but I don't want to hear their horror stories.....I've done my research, I know the risks and the risks of continuing with all this weight is much riskier!

April 21 is my turn

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That's my fear too Aprilnicole..... Not waking up after anesthesia. My husband was upset that I went to see my lawyer about my will and got a healthcare proxy.

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Wow! A will didn't even think of it!

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I'm going to just pray about it I know everyone will not be excited for me but I need change in my life and I want to be healthy

BlessedBeyondMeassure

Not waking up was my big fear as well. I'm 5 days post op. A week or so prior to your surgery date you'll be required to have an appointment with Anesthesiology. At that point you'll meet your team and they will do whatever blood work and stuff they need. They'll help calm your fears because that is a common one. They'll let you know if there is any reason to be concerned.

Their job and passion is getting people safely under and safely back to consciousness. It will be ok.

Like I said, that's what I was scared of as well. I don't even remember going into surgery. Coming out I was a little nauseated and disoriented but ok.

As for the will, it's always good to be prepared. I always say that worry isn't preparation so at least you're using that energy to prepare instead of fret endlessly.

Thanks melyssafaye I do believe we will be okay! Amen!

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I'm going to just pray about it I know everyone will not be excited for me but I need change in my life and I want to be healthy

BlessedBeyondMeassure

And they will be the same ppl that will see you loss 50 or more lbs and have something to say...regret will make you more anxious. ..

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I don't think those are irrational fears. To deal with them productively, I think you should come to view them as risks, and then work to manage/minimize those risks. For example, regarding anesthesia, make sure you are working with a high quality surgical team, and be sure to disclose completely any health conditions that you may have that could affect your risk and their approach.

Not being able block out other people and do what is best for me.....

This one is going to be big for me through this process. My Mom will be supportive, as will my husband; but I don't plan to tell too many other people (if any). My ILs are SO judgmental it's ridiculous and I know they'd be like "Wish I could take the 'easy way' out" (yeah, they're also overweight and see this kind of thing as a cop-out.) Because having most of your stomach removed permanently is easy. Bah. I also live in a "skinny" town. I am always the largest one when I get together with friends, have been since I moved here 10 years ago. No one seems to mind/care, but I do, and I'm not sure what to expect once I start losing - whether things will change at all.

I'm just trying to focus on the positive reasons to do this. If I lose friends along the way, it means they weren't really friends to begin with I suppose

I really don't understand when people think this is the "easy" way out....I have't had that yet (not to my face anyway)....but my plan if it does happen is to just agree with them...haha "Yeah it's a breeze....like a magic wand"...and then I'll just move along to my "real" friends.

I'm also terrified I won't wake up...however, I have had this fear with other surgery before and made it through, even felt panic flood me when they put the mask over my face, and then conked out so fast I couldn't really obsess. I had to count backwards from 10 and I think I only got to 8. Found myself waking up in recovery in what seemed like seconds later. The nurses were TERRIFIC before my operation...they'd seen scared people over and over again. One of them wrapped me in a blanket straight from the warmer because I was shivering and held my hand until I was wheeled into the ER. The anesthesiologists gave me IV meds to relax beforehand. If you tell them you are scared, they will take very good care of you.

I, too, have momentary doubts about whether or not I should go through with it, whether or not WLS means I've given up on myself (when intellectually I know it means the exact opposite - I'm giving myself the best chance possible to get the weight off), etc.

I also fear reactions from other people - thus far I've only told my parents (and health care providers who need to know, but I don't count them) and am dreading telling anyone else. I just might keep it entirely to myself until afterwards, if I even bother telling people then.

I also have fear about whether or not insurance with *really* pay for it, even though I meet the criteria and am getting all the required tests done. Talking to my surgeon's program coordinator helped. She's seen many people with my insurance and stats get approved.

The upper GI fluoroscopy is no big deal. More awkward than anything else, although I'd be lying if I didn't say barium tastes terrible. The test takes maybe 15 minutes, if that, and they've typically seen tons of pre-op bariatric patients.