While I did wonderfully for my Thanksgiving celebration (brought my own meal and made a WLS crustless pumpkin pie sweetened with Truvia), we had a family celebration for my husband's side of the family yesterday for Christmas. I made spinach and artichoke dip and used reduced fat everything in it and made oopsie bread for myself (I brought baguettes and chips for everyone else). I spooned a little of the dip on the oopsie bread,had a little bit of cowboy caviar and a few pieces of cheese and crackers. I couldn't believe how quickly the calories added up! I really didn't do that bad and still did a Turbo Fire workout when I got home. I weighed myself this morning and I weigh the same (Yay! I didn't gain!), but somehow have been beating myself up today as if I gorged myself on unhealthy Christmas goodies (I did end up eating more calories then usual as these are foods I don't typically eat except low fat cheese). In all reality, deep down, I know I did much, much better then I normally would have, but I still feel guilty. Is this a good or a bad thing? Part of me thinks it's a good thing, but part of me thinks it is bad as I don't want to become obsessive about it (my therapist says I have mild OCD and am using it as part of my weight loss ie weighing every day, weighing and counting everything, obsessing over exercise and my caloric intake). Has anyone else experienced this? Like having a small amount of food you wouldn't normally eat one day will ruin everything? Part of me is afraid as when I felt like I failed in the past I always had issues with feeling like that was it and completely gave up. Luckily I don't feel that way today. I feel more determined to keep going.

I would say well done! I have absolutely experienced the feeling of eating something "bad" and that has blown my whole diet. But that was before WLS. I don't think in those terms any longer. I'm 8 weeks out from gastric bypass surgery and at this point I feel like I am running experiments on what my pouch will accept that is high protein. If I crave something sweet I make fat free, sugar free pudding with Fair Life milk and I add a scoop of unflavored protein powder to it. I get the maximum amount of protein out of everything I eat. Most of the time my carb intake consists of fruit because my pouch says no grains but sliced up pear is fine. I count the carbs per day and keep it under 50 grams per day. I think you made excellent choices in a difficult situation when you are experimenting with what is going to work for you long term. Does that make sense? We are still in the learning curve, you did great!