Well, friends, this week has been full of emotions...

I had my last dietician appt on Tuesday and I cried at the end of it. I'm not sure exactly why I was crying. All I could think of is was "this is my last visit with her. She has been so helpful and encouraging through the last 4 months. I feel like a part of my life is "dying" so to speak. A part that has comforted me throughout my life. Food...It has always been there and has never let me down, except for I love it so much, I am obese at this point.

I'm nervous, anxious, and scared. I feel prepared and am ready, but I can't help but be nervous. I am trying to stay busy by wrapping presents early (which I really don't enjoy doing lol), I'm organizing my pantry and fridge to get ready for the "new" life. I even made a shelf in the pantry that is just for me. I won't have to look at the chips, snacks, and other things on the lower shelves that is for my kiddos lunches. I know....ridiculous. lol

My paperwork was submitted to Aetna for approval today, so I hope to have approval soon. I am really grateful for this forum. It has really helped me. I can write about the way I feel and you all are there or have been there and understand. Thank you for being supportive and giving me a platform to vent, express my feelings, and laugh about this process.

I can't wait to be on the loser's bench!

Edited December 9, 201510 yr by jembell01

Congratulations! I know it is scary but you are truly at the beginning of a new life. The anxiety and uncertainty about stepping into the unknown was truly the worst part of the whole process for me.

You can sit next to me in the loser's bench. I've saved you a seat.

Congratulations! I know it is scary but you are truly at the beginning of a new life. The anxiety and uncertainty about stepping into the unknown was truly the worst part of the whole process for me.

You can sit next to me in the loser's bench. I've saved you a seat

How did you handle the night before? I'm feeling like I won't be able to sleep at all. LOL

It's quite normal for your emotions to be up in air. This is a life changing journey you're embarking on, as you set out to leave one life behind, and begin anew.

And it is so worth it. It helped me at that juncture to focus on where I would possibly be if I did nothing. That did it and I've never looked back again. I'm not even at goal yet, but I'm only 30 pounds away. I would do it over again in a heartbeat!

You'll be fine. Hang in there!