Is major moodiness BEFORE surgery common?

I feel like today (this evening, particularly) I'm just ready to scream - and I cannot even pinpoint why. I'm a counselor, so of course that means I'm analyzing myself! LOL.

What I have so far is this, because there are a number of things that are starting to stress me, and my major stressor (ie. what is making me the most agitated) at any given time seems to be changing:

• Fear of not making good choices after surgery. I'm on my pre-op diet now, and while I know I'm getting 'enough' calories and Protein in, toward the evening (which is my habit), I'm really wanting to eat fast food/junk food. I'm trying to remind myself that almost everyone who has had surgery has been in the exact same situation, that's how we got here!, and they did not become perfect health nuts - the surgery helps.
• I'm grouchy because the scales have stopped moving while on this pre-op diet. A few years ago I did great at losing weight. Of course, it was only that one time I ever stuck with a diet long enough to see any progress - so this is my first time to truly experience TRYING to lose and failing (rather than giving up). So it's really upsetting to me to see the scales going up and down, up and down. The diet is not very strict (in my opinion), and it feels like I'm stalling on it, so it's frustrating to me.
• In addition to the stuck scales, I am on the Depo shot - I worry how much that is causing the scales to stick, and how that might impact the scales after surgery, as well - but it is for medical necessity, not convenience.
• I'm feeling a bit grumpy because I have a deadline for the weight loss the doctor wants me to have. I'm afraid of failing. I'm afraid of the accountability and answering to someone else, because I never have - I've never let anyone know my weight or if I was dieting - because I didn't want them to know if I failed. So this deadline is really raising my agitation level. I know I will make it, it's just making me so tense.

Has anyone else experienced these anxieties or hormones or whatever is going on? I've read the forums so much, and thought I was prepared, now I'm wondering where my brain went!

Fear is the hardest thing to puah past in my experience. The anxiety goes with that for me. I am not even as far in the process as you are and I feel like those things could hit me any day now. You are not alone in these feelings/hormones. Honestly I am not sure there is a way to help you right this minute but know that your feelings if I were a betting person are very common and I hope someone else can give advice to ride them out.

Thank you, Infernogoddess! I guess I should say I've already met all preop requirements and am just waiting on my exact date. They wanted me to start a 'diet' change from the start, which I did, and preop diet October 1, which I have already started - it's suppose to be a 3-6 week preop diet. Hoping for October 19 or 26. Since I finished all testing on Friday, and all of the 'work' is out of the way, maybe my nerves are finally truly kicking in!

Edited September 29, 201510 yr by Mistie

I may be wrong but I do believe that diet changes can amp up those feelings.

Oh boy wait till after the surgery think pms all over lol it will pass.....warning to all husbands boyfriends and significant others do as your asked and no you cannot eat chili dogs in front of us or anything else we can't have

Edited September 29, 201510 yr by shellyd88

As far as birth control...I did depo and gained weight. My dr suggested the Nexplanon implant. It goes in your arm, it's like a little plastic stick and it lasts for 3 years. It was a little more painful but but worth it and it doesn't cause weight gain.

Fortunately (in this case), I am not married! So at least someone is a little safer! LOL.

Oh boy wait till after the surgery think pms all over lol it will pass.....warning to all husbands boyfriends and significant others do as your asked and no you cannot eat chili dogs in front of us or anything else we can't have

Thanks for the info, @mayasmomma. I take it for medical necessity, not birth control. I had lost 74 pounds a couple of years ago - and almost as soon as I got the shot - my weight shot right back up and brought friends! I had no idea what was going on or why I was gaining weight until afterwards, and someone told me that Depo was problematic! Ugh. I was so upset! I cannot take traditional birth control pills any longer because I've had pulmonary emboli and DVT, and they've tried me on a range of other pills, none have been successful in controlling my menstrual problems. The Depo shot was like a Godsend. Until I found out about the weight gain, of course! It's a certain type of hormone I have to have in certain doses. I will talk to my gyno about it, however - maybe there's something else I can take! As much as I hate it, I'm terrified to come off of the Depo!

As far as birth control...I did depo and gained weight. My dr suggested the Nexplanon implant. It goes in your arm, it's like a little plastic stick and it lasts for 3 years. It was a little more painful but but worth it and it doesn't cause weight gain.

Mayasmamma nexplanon does make a lot of women gain weight maybe opt for a Mirena instead....