its been a rough weekend (a lot of personal drama at home) but this morning I hit my tickers halfway point of -58lbs. With 58 still to go to get to my "dream" weight, I know its achievable, but at this moment ~ I don't care. Sorry I need to vent here because I cant at home or out aloud. I walked into work an hour ago crying... not feeling it right now.

Adult son has some serious legal issues right now and is probably going "away" for a while. This is my youngest child who lives at home with me and his step-dad - I feel alone.

Hang in there. The greatest fear is the fear of the unknown and right now, that fear is driving your thoughts and reactions. At one point along our journey, my husband and I separated so I could help my son. That was a huge waste of time and money. As long as I helped him, he wouldn't become responsible. So, we quit letting him love with us. He stays at the local mission. Now, he works at a local factory 5-6 days a week. Pays his own way in life and is saving to get a place so he can take his daughter to live with him whom we raise. When they grow up, we have to let them be grown ups, no matter how much it hurts.

@@GoogleGal8 - he just called and wants to be bailed out. 30k in case he jumps is way too much for me to bite off. I agree he needs to figure it out (life) minus me being his fallback person ALL the time.

It's not easy to say no. Believe me, I still have to say no. It's what's best.