Hi all I will be done with all the appointments by the end of August, already approved by insurance and I still don't believe it can happen to me. The dietitian gave us homework to imagine what it is going to be like to be thin and healthy. Do i dare hope for such a thing. Hope leads to disappointment and hurt!!!

I know that I need to be healthy, i mean i am 42 and it's not going to get easier as i get older. Deep down I want to be a different person all together, you know one of those girls that were excepted in that "skinny club" in school, who were comfortable in their own skin.

Last nutrition class tomorrow than EGD/colonoscopy on 8/24/15. If all clears they will schedule surgery. Maybe then I will start to realize yes it is going to happen Lord please give me strength to control my eating so I don'y gain before then.

My thoughts and prayers to all. Jesus loves you and so do I.

God bless! This is gonna be the best decision you ever made! I'll be 2 weeks post op on Wednesday. I kept asking myself is this real. It all hit me once I checked in on surgery day. I wasn't nervous or scared. I had already prayed about the situation and asked God for a speedy recovery. I'm doing well and I'm looking forward to a new beginning.

Girl, you're only 42, you have a LOT of time left! Especially after this journey when you become healthy and happy. I know that same feeling all too well; like I wish that I could go back high school and walk down a hallway without feeling people were staring at me for any other reason than the fact that I am fabulous! But here is something I have learned, a secret many, many of those "skinny/popular" girls don't even know about themselves: most people hate their bodies, and most people always will. Even the perfect model who gets fawned over and adored for her looks at least occasionally feels self-conscious. It's an unfortunate side effect of society. We're taught to always feel bad about ourselves, always want what someone else has, always feel like we could be better. Never to love ourselves regardless of how we look and find our worth outside of the opinions of others. What's going to matter in the end is that day you look in the mirror and see the person you feel like inside and realize every step, the good and the painful, through your years has brought you to this moment where you finally realize the opinions of others have absolutely nothing to do with how wonderful, how beautiful, and how blessed you are. Good luck with everything, and keep us updated! <3

Good Luck, mine is scheduled sept 4th on August 20 is my pre-op appointment. It's like a waiting game at this point and I'm getting nervous. I have a hard time picturing myself skinny it's kind of weird lol congrats !!