So as I lay here at 1 am thinking about what is about to be done to my body. I know it's normal to feel nervous. But i kinda feel bad for the reasons I am feeling nervous. It's kinda petty really. I know the whole "I'm doing it to get healthy" speal but deep down I just want to feel like a normal person who isn't the heaviest person in the room. I don't want to be the fat funny friend that is always single. The everyone thinks I'm gay because I have never had a boyfriend. ( I'm not hating on gay people please don't take it like I am) does anyone else feel bad for thinking this way? I can't be the only one.

You are most certainly not the only one that feels this way. Yes we are doing this for our health but we all are also doing it to look better, to no longer stand out for all the wrong reasons.

We are doing it to feel better about ourselves. You are not alone...

Yes we are doing this for our health. We have our physical health that the surgery will help with diabetes and high blood pressure, sleep apnea and all the other issues that we face. But there is also our mental health. I'm sure we all have stories of feeling out of place because of our weight. Not wanting to do certain things because we're afraid we won't fit in the seat or not wanting to participate in a sporting event because of how we might look. But we are taking the steps that we need to physically and mentally make us better people. And in turn that will take care of our spiritual being because we will be much happier and healthier! You are not alone by any means. There are 1000s of people in your shoes (including me) but look at it this way at least you are brave enough to say it!

Hi. I've tried to avoid thinking about what happens in the surgery because I feel very queasy about operations of any kind. I have avoided reading descriptions or looking at diagrams of what will happen and have really focused on the practical things I will need to do after surgery. That has helped me to not freak out about it. ????

ToniMarie05, I completed understand! You're definitely not alone. I mentioned in a previous post that a pic was my reality check. I couldn't believe it. I realized what I'd done to myself. WELL NO MORE! Yes I truly want to be healthy, but I also want to feel sexy again. I want to wear something that cute, not because it's black and comfortable. I'm getting married next year, I refuse to walk down the aisle like this. So you see we all want to be healthy, but yes deep down we have reasons for vanity as well. I was once told, you need 2 things in life happiness and your health. With this surgery, you can have both. ????

ToniMarie05 I truly understand how you feel I'm certainly doing this for my health but also so I will no longer have to feel like blob rolling around the office not being able to wear the latest style cause they dont sell it in my size looking for the biggest chair in the conference room so it doesn't pinch my hips all in all you are certainly not alone