Iliterally just decided that this was right for me. I have always had really good self esteem and told myself that this was for health reasons. But, man, since I have decided to go forward, all of a sudden I feel fat and ugly and all I can think k about is how good I'll look skinny. I thought finally deciding would make me feel good, but, fat it is!

Your only human don't be so hard on yourself. Surgery is a life changing tool for living a healthier lifestyle. I just got my surgery date and I admit I have also thought I just want to be thin so I can look good. I think that is okay also and healthy. We are going to physically feel so much better and that will come out in our self esteem as well. I was didn't struggle with obesity as a child or very young adult it wasn't until around 25 that I started piling on the pounds and I didn't really have a bad image of myself either. It wasn't until five or six months ago that I saw a video a family member had taken and all of a sudden it hit me I am fat and I can't possibly live another 40 years like this I will never make it and thought how ashamed my thin fit adult and young children are of me. Of course that's not the case lol. Keep your chin up. Don't be so hard on yourself your making a good decision now and you deserve this.

I'm w you! I am obsessed with what I will look like a year from now. Can't wait to go shopping in the fall!

I feel similar! So looking forward to new clothes and such. My husband keeps saying stuff like "but it's about being healthy, right?" Well yes but the smaller clothes part is what is keeping me going during this frustrating pre and post op diet part!

I understand what you mean. The moment I decided that this is the direction I'm going, all the sudden I feel fatter and hungrier and my body hurts more. But then I'm also excited and find myself wondering if I can really be a normal weight for once in my life. I've never been a normal weight(since I was 4 anyway) so the idea of being skinny is still such a foreign concept I don't know what to do with it. I look at my teen daughter and wonder "will I look like her?" "Is that even possible?!?" I cannot fathom it yet.

When we are done we are going to be healthy, skinny and darn sexy! (Notice I put healthy first, lol)

When we are done we are going to be healthy, skinny and darn sexy! (Notice I put healthy first, lol)

Yeah, healthy and skinny I need.....sexy I've already got going on! LMAO

Ok, me too. Let's say evil, wicked sexy. Lol

Whatever the order the reasons are listed in......deciding to take action to not be obese is sounds great to me.