Holy crap. I've gained 20 lbs in less than two months. :drum: :tea:

Right now I'm sitting on tenterhooks about my rebanding, since the insurance coverage is not a sure thing. The house is full of fruit and lean Protein, but there's nothing standing between me and what seems to be compulsive eating. I can't tell the difference between hunger and habit. It almost seems like someone else is putting things in my mouth. (Holy cow, that sounds bizarre!)

Clothes are already too small, and my closet is a scary, depressing place once again. My legs are slamming together, and my reflection in the mirror is frightening. I feel worse now about my weight than I've ever felt in my life, and my family is bearing the brunt. This absolutely sucks.

Sorry to share my black mood with everyone. But I know getting it out is better than any alternative.

I'm sorry to hear about that. BUT, I'm glad to see that not only do you recognize that your gaining (instead of pushing it aside) you have a date to reband. Good for you. I wish you all the best. (Psst... we wouldn't have gotten banded in the first place if we could control it... so don't feel guilty!)

I woke up this morning feeling better, stronger, and more optimistic than I was yesterday. :dance: Thank you, everyone, for being so understanding and supportive. I really appreciate it, more than you know. :wave:

Mark, thank you. :hug:

Hi Alexandra,

I had my band revised the same week you had yours removed. My old band was taken out because of a slip and a new band was put in. I have gained 20 pounds also.....I am living your pain. I have joined weight watchers, but I am having a hard time. Everytime I step on the scale it is a biger number. I have no restriction, I am trying to use this as a lesson. I have an appointment to get a fill, don't give up. My insurance paid for the new band even though they would not pay for the original one? go figure? Just don't give up, we creating more than skinny bodies. We are in the process of tranforming our lives. It is a process and there is bound to be a few lessons along the way. Jennifer

Alexandria,

I just wanted to tell you I am thinking about you. You are such a rock to people on this forum. All of your replies to others are great and supportive!! I agree with the post above...you are not going into debt because of not being able to stop putting food in your mouth. This goes way deeper than that, and you truly know this, you are just feeling that way right now. You are beautiful and a wonderful person. I truly hope that all goes your way!!! Here's to your health and your happiness!!! Deanna

Thanks so much, ladies. Good thoughts are still needed and MUCH appreciated.

My doctor's office told me yesterday that they are filing an expedited appeal and expect a medical review to take place today. I asked what the experience was with this, and the answer was that she's never filed an appeal to have a band replaced when someone has such a low BMI. In this practice when bands have been removed it's always been for people who had been unsuccessful losing weight and therefore still qualified for replacement or revision. She didn't know if my lower BMI would completely prevent approval or not. :confused:

I'm really scared.

Oh man! How I can relate to those feelings! Try to focus on the fact that you are being banded again in less than a week and the process will begin again for you! I can't imagine how hard this has got to be. Hang in there, it will be over soon!

look into Take Shape for Life--website NeverHungry.tsfl.com there is a life after the band--perhaps this will help until you make another decision--qwuestions?? e-mal me!! I lost over 30# and was never hungry and balanced!! wonderful easy program. banded 6/13/06 loss so far 108#

look into Take Shape for Life--website NeverHungry.tsfl.com there is a life after the band--perhaps this will help until you make another decision--qwuestions?? e-mal me!! I lost over 30# and was never hungry and balanced!! wonderful easy program. banded 6/13/06 loss so far 108#

Alexandra, so sorry about your problems. I gained 37 lbs. back in just a few months last year after falling off the Weight Watchers' wagon--it is just so depressing and such a helpless feeling. But I hardly took time to admit I was gaining--good for you realizing what is happening and working hard to rectify the situation.

Whenever I feel scared I think of Paul's words to Timothy in the Bible: "God has not given us the spirit of FEAR, but of POWER, and of LOVE, and of a STRONG MIND!" So embrace your inner power, know you are loved, and keep working on solutions--you CAN get through this--fear is just not an option.

So embrace your inner power, know you are loved, and keep working on solutions--you CAN get through this--fear is just not an option.

This literally brought tears to my eyes, Momlambert. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I feel like I have a lot of guardian :angel: wings flapping for me. :hug:

Hi Alex, I really feel the fear and pain in your words. This whole weight/obesity issue is such a burden for all of us here. We all can relate to what you are going through. I am sending positive vibes your way that all will be well with the insurance situation.

I am also at a bit of a blue stage in my whole banding journey. I have lost a lot of weight already and that continues, but why am I feeling so depressed? Last Saturday I just sat on my couch and cried for most of the day. Could not stop crying all day. My hair has been falling out in clumps daily also with so sign of stopping.

It is not easy at all.:confused:

Susannah

Oh I'm so so sorry to hear about this. Hang in there God will pull you through it.

JudyBellyBand has a leak in her 3 yr old band she has spent the last 8 months fighting with insurance and also gained 20 pounds. Yesterday she got word that the approval letter is on it's way. She is on the other band site more than this one I think so you could try to sent her a PM on there.

Anyway it may take a while but don't give up.

Youhave been such an insiration to me and so many others on here. I thank you for your help in so many times of needs.

I will say a prayer for your approval.

Alexandra,

I can literally feel your anguish and pain with having the weight gain, I've often thought that if I have to have my band removed they might as well do bypass at the same time because I'd gain weight all my weight back like a madwoman in no time at all. I wish you all the best in getting your new band, I pray it will all work out with your insurance company. You helped me out SO MUCH in the past with your encouragement and advice, good luck and my thoughts are with you. Hang in there!

I'm new here but I think anyone who has or is going to get the lapband procedure understands the fear and depression dealing with weight gain. You have accomplished so much over the years. You should be proud of yourself. You have a great group of people around you supporting you and praying for you. I will also keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Even though we have never actually chatted - - I can completely understand the day to day struggle with weight and food. You deserve happiness and another chance with the lapband. BMI....SHBMI....this procedure should allow patients another chance if the lapband slips or leaks (which is not in your control). Insurance companies can be so infuriating. Again, you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Quinn

Read your post, and feel for you so much. My closet like yours is a very horrid place for me right now, just hate myself. I'm new to this site and please don't be offended but why did you have your band removed? I've booked to have a band fitted on the 15th June and I was told it was for life. I really hope you manage to get things sorted, the best of luck

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