I have been soooooo good on the pre op until tonight. I put nutella on my german puff pancake. I have felt yucky since and am not sure if it is food related or guilt. I even went to a party last night and brought my own Protein and ate that and green Beans - plain green beans! Nothing else. I did it just! Now to mess up today, I am tired, I am grumpy, I am easily offended and I fell asleep in a meeting at work.

I emailed the nut today and learned I have been under doing my calories which may be why I am so tired. I was aiming for the 800 per day goal and she said I should do 1200. I have never lost weight on 1200 calories so we negotiated to 1000 I guess.

My husband says I am trying to be too perfect. I just know I don't want to fail again, and others lose a lot pre op so I was trying to also. I wasn't even feeling deprived and I went and ate a bit of nutella. WHY? too hungry, too emotional, too tired.

My diet is Protein Drink and a fruit or veggie for Breakfast and lunch. Dairy snack with a fruit or veggie. Light dinner of 3 oz protein, a veggie and a small whole grain serving. And all the calorie free drinks I want.

I am meeting all of it but nutella? Oh well.....I guess it is time to move forward.

I know how you feel. I was also being really good and lost 9 lbs on my preop diet. My surgery is next Tuesday. Then just now I got out of bed and had a yogurt and a Protein bar. I'm saying the same thing to myself....why??? Well, you're right, we just have to move forward.

By the way, I love Nutella lol

Edited December 4, 201411 yr by Alfie

I just saw this on facebook and thought to re post it here:

One of the most important things a person can do is master his or her ability to upgrade the state they're in. Frustration and Failure are powerful forces that can be harnessed, channeled and used productively, upgraded or even just neutralized. NO ONE can cause you to feel something without you buying into it first.

That is my attitude adjustment to let it go and move forward - I am learning to harness my frustration.

You'll be ok don't take it so hard. The reason why some of us lose so much pre-op is because we are on such a strict pre-op diet. I lost 16 lbs in two weeks but I was ONLY allowed 4 Protien shakes a day plus broth, sugar free Popsicles and Sugar free jello...nothing else! I didn't get any food at all. Some people like yourself are still allowed foods so try not to judge your pre-op weigh loss on anyone else's.

Awww, hang in there and try not to be too tough on yourself. It's a HUGE change and it's not easy. Just think how it'll be post op--you might have that little bit of Nutella and your body will tell you whether it's ok or not, like your own body did today.

I'm on day 1--2 Protein shakes, 4 oz of chicken or fish, a cup of veggies. This is NOT my idea of fun, but I'm not going to worry myself to death if I slip up once in these two weeks. Good luck!