Hello all! My name is Sandy and I finally have my surgery date, November 20th. I am excited! Since I received word of my surgery date I have become overly emotional about everything. I am not sure if it is fear of the unknown, relief that I am finally moving forward, or scared of how I will react to losing weight. I am wondering if anyone else is feeling this way, scared of what it will feel like to not be heavy. My weight has been almost like a security blanket. Sounds a little crazy, right? However, I am ready for November 20th to get here!!!

Edited October 16, 201411 yr by SandyS

Hey ya'll... so good to hear that emotions are all over the place. For all of us getting ready for the surgery I think we're sharing many of the same fears. I think it's the fear of the unknown for me. I don't know what to really expect that first couple weeks, and then like jacileggs I look forward to seeing my reflection and wondering who that hot old gal is. Right now I avoid all windows and mirrors whenever I can. I want to know who the real me is again. That woman has gotten lost somewhere along the line, and she's dying to live again!!

Hey ya'll... so good to hear that emotions are all over the place. For all of us getting ready for the surgery I think we're sharing many of the same fears. I think it's the fear of the unknown for me. I don't know what to really expect that first couple weeks, and then like jacileggs I look forward to seeing my reflection and wondering who that hot old gal is. Right now I avoid all windows and mirrors whenever I can. I want to know who the real me is again. That woman has gotten lost somewhere along the line, and she's dying to live again!!

I totally agree about feeling you have gotten lost along the way. I've been so heavy for so long I don't ever remember being skinny except for pics of my first 3 years of life which is emotional enough to think I'll look in the mirror and see a different girl and that maybe for once I will like my own reflection

Since I wrote this post I have been as calm and cool as a cucumber! I feel so much better knowing I am not alone. So thankful for this site and for everyone that I can share my journey with.

Edited October 23, 201411 yr by SandyS

I don't have my surgery yet but I relate to being an "Emotional Mess". Right now I AM a mess. I cannot seem to get used of the pre-op diet they gave me. It is VERY hard for me because lately I've been feeling sick and exhausted. I realized with this new plan that I do feel fuller faster and more energy but the downside is feeling sick to my stomach. I am following everything it says to do but I guess my body just needs to adjust to this plan because right now I am going through hell. I feel like I want to eat but can't because I already don't have much of an appetite. I feel like I am fueled by optimism and will power lately. I do like this feeling but I think I probably need to drink more water again and eat just a tad bit more because since I got this diet I don't know what I should eat, how do I prepare it, when I should eat, or how should I go about drinks before and after meals because I used to love to drink A LOT of water during meals now I have to learn to train myself NOT to. I have no clue what is wrong with me and wished that I understood why and how I feel this way.

Tierra T Tij how are you? Getting through your pre-op diet? You will be fine. I keep telling myself that this is a major life altering decision, for the better. Keep smiling! You will do great!!!

Edited October 24, 201411 yr by SandyS

Hi.

Has anyone heard from Lost1. I think she was supposed to have her surgery later in this month. I think I remember reading that it was moved up from November.

My pre-op is Tuesday. My surgery is then 2 weeks later. I'm really starting to get panicky. So many family things happening right now that are very stressful, and I'm having a hard time coping with it all. I'm not sleeping well, and I'm really concerned about the 2 week pre-op liquid diet. My poor husband doesn't know if I'm going to cry to snap his head off at any given moment. I keep telling myself that it's all going to work out, and that I have to worry about taking care of myself right now, and let someone else worry about taking care of everyone else.

Sandy S. I'm also glad you posted this concern. I've had my band removed 8 weeks ago and will soon start the pre-op diet. No surgery date set yet but I am already a nervous wreck. Before banding, I changed my mind at least 5 times and they were tired of me I know. Now I'm ready for my revision surgery. So I can only imagine how I"ll feel once I get a surgery date. I'm afraid of what others will say and act towards me being thin. We can all relate, and once I get my surgery date, I know that I will be coming back here reading these posts for support as well. Remember, we are in this together and I know that you'll be giving support to me and many others. Thanks!

My surgery date is Nov 4th and I am stress eating like crazy which is making me doubt that I am ready. Also I have not heard back from insurance company yet and how come it seems that everyone else has a two week liquid diet and mine is two days? I'm freaking out. So you see, you are definitely not alone! Good luck to everyone!

Starting 2 week liquid diet tomorrow. I'm ready, but still in panic mode. Going out to dinner today with family. It's been dubbed "the last supper". When I see my doc tomorrow for my final pre-op visit I'll probably weigh 10lbs. more than I did the last time I saw him. I had to quit smoking which was really hard to do, so I know I ate more than usual. I've also been treating myself to my favorites. I feel so guilty.