Today was GAWD awful. It was all good up until around 4pm. A friend told me that another friend was murdered. I was shocked!!! I'm torn up.

All of us were in Law Enforcement. She had to retire due to health reasons. She was sprayed by a crop duster and lost use of over 40% of her lungs. Her estranged husband, who is also law enforcement, shot her several times. They were due in court for divorce the next day.

Her children were in the house. My poor friend and her children. He ruined 5 lives and the children lost both parents. This has really upset me.

She was strong, strong willed, funny and quick. I teased her by calling her Tackleberry. Being in Law Enforcement is difficult. Especially for women.

Before being sleeved, I would have hit the food. I didn't feel the need for that. I did have one martini in her honor. I did not binge, I did not over eat. I ate healthy. Granted, I did have a martini, however, my perspective has altered. Instead of seeking comfort from food and pounding down the hurt and pain under food and fat, I am experiencing the grief. Facing it head on and not hiding. That is new for me. What a major test!

As for my friend........where ever you are....you are missed.

Oh my gosh, what a horrible story! I'm so sorry for the loss of your friend. Sounds like you're making the good choices she'd want for you. Continue to do that - and one martini is enough. Another one would only make you sadder, and could lead to making poor choices. Like my wife says, "One martini is never enough, and two is always too many." God bless you and her kids!

What a tragic story!

Condolences for your friend and her children.

Congrats on your new outlook on your life. Great to acknowledge how your mindset and behaviors have changed.

Oh my Lord. What a horrific story. May God bless your friend and her family, and you. I'm sure she is proud of you. I'm so sorry this happened. I will say prayers.